Well this has been an interesting night/morning/afternoon... Im not quite sure what to make of it... though I think This changes things from now on. I guess it was bound to happen sooner or later but now Im not sure whats gona happen. I guess well just have to see.

Tonight I have determined in my current sleep deprived state, that while time seems to stop and everything seems meaningless when you hit midnight and have no one to talk to but the blank screen in front of you and the blinking currser, it is then and only then where you truly find yourself.

And so... being in such a state of mind right now, I realize... I have no Idea who I am anymore. I knew once but... Seeing my refection looking back at me, and I at him. I don't know this man, something happened between the time I recall knowing my self and tonight that has changed everything. 

This seems to be a problem at first but then if you think about it, this could be good, perhaps this is a sign that I need to find my self again, take a step back and redetermine what defines my self as a person.

Or maybe I just need sleep. Who knows.

But to all toughs out there actually willing to suffer through my rantings thank you and my apologies for all the spelling errors.