Lost Chance
By: Josette Steele

The end is near for us
Can you not hear those bells?
They toll for us
My tears begin to stream
Down my face
Showing you my vulnerability
A sight you have always
Begged to see
I only show this because I know
This will be the last time
I will ever have a chance to
Kiss me, darling
Feel my sweetness
Once more
Say the words you have
Always wanted to say
It is too late for us, though
I stand here in white
Adorned with flowers
Walking down the aisle
Your regret, visible to the masses
I kiss your cheek,
Smile as I look into your eyes
And take my first step to the man
I'm going to spend the rest
Of my life with.

I had this awesome dream last night that I just have to share. I dreamt that I had seven children with this amazing man. Their names were as follows (from oldest to youngest):

1. Cayden Noah
2. Alexzandyr Gabriel
3. Celeste Pretaya
4. Harmony Grace
5. Sage Ophelia
6. Jossiah Andrew 
7. Iris Ammarie

They were so unbelieveably gorgeous. I had them with an amazing man too, that's a plus.

My first elfpack poem posting.

For Renee
By: Josette Steele

I can't be there anymore
And it tears me up inside
Felt like I was ripped open
Revealing the most intimate vulnerability
You were the child I had wanted
But not ready for
Your memory floating through my head
I think about you everyday
Everyday!
I wish I could tell you the truth
But that would only confuse you
You need to learn by yourself
But God I miss you so much!
Your soft blonde hair
And beautiful blue eyes
The way your breathing deepend
As I cradled you
And lulled you to sleep.
That's what I miss most about
My days.
I wish I could tell you how sorry
I am for having to push you away
As our parents separated
You deserve better
And I couldn't give it to you.
I know it's no excuse,
But I was hurting too.
The problem now is,
I can't see you anymore
And it kills me.

I put a lot of my poetry and writings in here so if anyone is interested, normally it will be here. Thank you!