i feel better today then i have in a long time but i'm really uncertan about my future and that scares me sometimes but i think i can handle it but sometimes i don't know what i'm going to do with my life its just that there's so much i want to do and i don't think i will be able to do it or even that i will be motivated enougf to do and besides that i dont enven know if those thing will matter to me then i'm just so confused
god damn i fucking hate my family
sometimes i just feel void of emotions like if someone close to me dies i dont even feel sad and if tragic tings happpen i just look at it without blinking when did i get so desensitised to life do i not care because i'm afraid that if i care the feeling will be to much sometimes i cry in my room alone i don't even know why an i crying for other people or am i crying for myself i know that if i really wanted to kill myself i would be dead right now im not the type to complain about wanting to but the idea has truend over in my head a good many times but i don't really feel like i ant to sometimes i don't want to be alive but i dont want to die i know that dosent make sence but i feel like life is one of the most pointless thing on of my friends once told me that most people send the majorty of there time contimplatinf wether or not to pruse useless goals then the rest of there time actually pruseing them. i askmysef why is personal gain so important why dose mony amtter so much yes i want mony but thats so i can support myself and hopefully one day support a familly of my own , th family i have right now is so fucked up i don't know wht to do but there my family and i love them so much, you know loving someone is one of the most painful thing anyone can go throught you risk your feelings for someone orr a great many people and what do they do walk all over you and most of the time tey don't even realize that it hurts you but what can you do you were the one that chose to love them to bring down the emotanal walls that keep you sefe so its your own fucking falut but its human nature to love to want to care for someone to try and love them right so i couldent help loving them could i. this fucking emotion love all it dose is hurt even when nothing is going wron theres still that pain in your chest it just hasent overwelmed you but i'm a fucking addict to pain and emotanal pain is my favorit kind thats why i think its better to not feel emotinos thean to feel pain or love yet i still want to keep liveing for those that i love and those that love me cause i know that with out love i would have nothing at all and that wich i did have would mean nothing
Statements about sex:
1. Sex is a beauty treatment. Scientific tests find that when women make love they produce amounts of the hormone estrogen, which makes hair shine and skin smooth.
2. Gentle, relaxed lovemaking reduces your chances of suffering dermatitis,ski
3. Lovemaking can burn up those calories you piled on during that romantic dinner.
4. Sex is one of the safest sports you can take up. It stretches and tones up just about every muscle in the body. It's more enjoyable than swimming 20 laps, and you don't need special sneakers!
5. Sex is an instant cure for mild depression. It releases endorphins into the bloodstream, producing a sense of euphoria and leaving you with a feeling of well-being.
6. The more sex you have, the more you will be offered. The sexually active body gives off greater quantities of chemicals called pheromones.The
7. Sex is the safest tranquilizer in the world. IT IS 10 TIMES MORE EFFECTIVE THAN VALIUM.
8. Kissing each day will keep the dentist away. Kissing encourages saliva to wash food from the teeth and lowers the level of the acid that causes decay, preventing plaque build-up.
9. Sex actually relieves headaches. A lovemaking session can release the tension that restricts blood vessels in the brain.
10. A lot of lovemaking can unblock a stuffy nose. Sex is a natural antihistamine. It can help combat asthma and hay fever.
So now you know...if they ever ask you which sport is healthiest, you know which one and why!!;)
30 THINGS THAT WIll MAKE YOUR PARENTS GO CRAZY
1. Follow them around the house everywhere...
2. Moo when they say your name...
3. Run into walls...
4. Say that wearing clothes is against your religion...
5. Stand over them at four in the morning with a huge grin on your face and say, good morning sunshine...
6. Pluck someone's hair out and yell, "DNA"...
7. Wear a sticker that says, "I’m a retard"...
8. Have 20 imaginary friends that you talk to all the time...
9. In public yell, "No Mom/Dad, I will not make out with you!!"...
10. Do what they actually tell you...
11. Jump off the roof, trying to fly...
12. Hold their hand and whisper to them, I see dead people...
13. At everything they say yell, Liar...
14. Try to swim in the floor...
15. Tap on their door all night...
16.Pretend to have amnesia...
17.Say everything backwards...
18.Give yourself a swirly...
19.Run around with a lamp shade on your head yelling, "the sun!!! it's dying!!!"...
20.Sing at the top of your lungs while running around the house...in your underwear...
21.Have nervous spasms at spontaneous times...
22.Snort loudly when you laugh and then laugh harder...
23.Run in circles...
24.Recite a whole movie 3 times...
25.Pretend to beat yourself up...
26.Slither everywhere...
27.Wear your pants on your head and your shirt on your waist... tell them you're making a fashion statement...
28.Try and drink out of a glass the wrong way...
29.Super glue your finger up your nose...
30.Talk to a pen...
1) When you are sad - I will help you get drunk and plot revenge against the sorry bastard who made you sad.
[2)] When you are blue - I will try to dislodge whatever is choking you.
[3)] When you smile - I will know that you finally had sex.
[4)] When you are scared - I will rag on you about it every chance i get.
[5)] When you are worried - I will tell you horrible stories about how much worse it could be and tell you to quit whining.
[6)] When you are confused - I will use little words.
[7)] When you are sick - Stay the hell away from me until you are well again. I don't want whatever you have.
[8)] When you fall - I will point and laugh at your clumsy ass.
[9)] When you need someone to talk to - I'll put you on hold. I never get a word in edgewise anyways.
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ok i feel better now
oh did i mention schools out yeaaah
ok well lets see today is sunday and i've been recovering from an intresting cold, i think i caught it on friday so i i'm lucky it will go away.