[xILY]'s diary
My Gawwd. I'm really starting to feel it now.
I thought it was bad at the beginning, but it was nothing.
Not compared to this.
I HATE MYSELF. I try to make myself believe I don't.
I do.
People can tell me all they want. It won't work.
I saw you slipping. But I was too stubborn to pull you back.
Thinking in the end everything would be ok.
That I always get my way.
You proved me wrong.
I thought it was bad at the beginning, but it was nothing.
Not compared to this.
I HATE MYSELF. I try to make myself believe I don't.
I do.
People can tell me all they want. It won't work.
I saw you slipping. But I was too stubborn to pull you back.
Thinking in the end everything would be ok.
That I always get my way.
You proved me wrong.
My whole life is going down hill.
I'm fucking up my school work.
My friends are beginning to see the me.
The me I never wanted them to even suspect was real.
I'm beggining to wonder why I bother?
What's truely keeping me here?
It may sound horrible, but it's not my friends, not my family.
No one understands ME anymore.
They understand who I wanted them to know.
I just want one person. One person to understand me.
One person I can tell everything to.
One person who won't let me fuck up again.
They say don't trust,
You, me, we, us.
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You said i got it all so wrong..
..That i could never be someone..
..You said that I was just a little girl who doesn't know
..buT looK aT mE noW ^ ^
person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down
probably will.[You'll have your heart broken
probably more than once and its harder everytime.]
You'll break hearts too so remember how it felt
when yours was broken.[You'll fight with your
best friend and you might even fall in love with
them.] You'll blame a new love for things an old
one did. You'll cry because time is passing so
fast and you'll eventually lose someone you love.
[So take too many pictures, laugh too hard, and
live like you've never been hurt because every
second you spend mad or upset is a minute of
happiness you'll never get back..]
Yoo called meeh strong; Yoo called me weak. But still yoor secrets; I will keep. Yoo took for granted; All the times I never let yoo down
So is this as fun as Cadbury's World ?
No.
Ohh. What just because you got free chocolate ?
Maybee ! But also because bricks don't interest me in the slightest.
Wanna free brick ?
// i can't believe i let that happen.
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For mine&& [Mikuru Asahina]'s Personal entertainment
..Yooh kno Yooh want it..
[BUT...]
There's so many things I wanna say
I will always love you
I will never leave you alone
Sometimes I just
[forget,]
It breaks my heart to see you crying
I could never make it [x. a l o n e .x]
..&everything's started going wrong, again
A white man yells to a black man. "Hey colored boy! You're blockin my view." The black man turned around and stood up. He then said: "When I was born I was black," "When I grew up I was black," "When I'm sick I'm black," "When I go in the sun I'm black," "When I'm cold I'm black," "When I die I'll be black" "But you sir..." "When you're born you're pink," "When you grow up you're white," "When you're sick, you're green," "When you go in the sun you turn red," "When you're cold you turn blue," "And when you die you turn purple." "And you have the nerve to call me colored?" The black man then sat back down and the white man walked away...
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Over 92% of the teen world population would die if
Abercrombie&&Fitch said that it wasn't cool to breathe.
Repost this in your house if yew are the other 8% that
is laughing your ass off!
Good riddance is all i haff tew say!
Random But True;;
[50 Things Girls Wish Guys Knew...]
1. dont tell us when you think other girls are hot.
[2. whenever possible, please say whatever you have to say during commercials.]
3. if you dont act like soap-opera guys, dont expect us to dress like Victoria Secret models.
[4. mark anniversaries on a calendar.]
5. there is no such thing as too much spooning.
[6. we think about you all the time.]
7. this is how we see it . . . Don't call = Don't Care.
[8. which also means that if we dont call, take the hint.]
9. we like you to be a little jealous . . . but overly possessive is not necessary.
[10. being able to make us laugh is so much more important than how much you can bench-press.]
11. return favors: we massage, you massage; we go down, you go down; we shave, you shave.
[12. foreplay is not an option . . . its a prerequisite.]
13. we're allowed to be late . . . you are not.
[14. eye contact is key.]
15. dont take longer to get ready than we do.
[16. laugh at our jokes.]
17. three words . . . honesty, honesty, honesty.
[18. girls can be groupies. guy groupies are stalkers.]
19. we never have to wonder if your orgasm was real.
[20. do not start with us. you will not win.]
21. would you like it if a guy treated your sister that way? we didnt think so.
[2. if you ask nicely, we usually answer the same way.]
23. we will never have enough clothes or shoes.
[4. we have an excuse to act bitchy at least once a month.]
25. open the door for us no matter where we are . . . even at our house and getting into the car.
[26. we love surprises!]
27. we liked to be kissed softly, not with an iron tongue.
[28. pay attention to the little things we do, because they mean the most.]
29. boxers and maybe boxer briefs sometimes . . . NEVER whitey-tightie
[30. clean your room before we come over.]
31. always brush your teeth before you see us . . . a fresh mouth and white teeth are a necessity.
[32. when we use our teeth it means that you suck at going down on us, so we are just returning the favor.]
33. even though you are sometimes insensitive and hurt us, we still love you with everything we are.
[34. dont act hard around your friends because i wont make you hard tonight.]
35. sometimes "NO!" really means "NO!"
[36. "Wife Beaters" are not an adequate form of fashion.]
37. if we wanted to be on video tape, we'd be a porn star not your girlfriend.
[38. sensitive guys are great . . . but crying more than we do in a movie just isnt right.]
39. dont let ex-girlfriends cause drama, relationships are stressful enough.
[40. it takes a special kind of stupid to forget birthdays.]
41. guys who are good cuddlers = guys who know how to satisfy a woman.
[42. "Fat Chicks" have feelings too.]
43. silent treatment, shoulder shrugs, tears, yelling and nasty looks all add up to . . . YOU DID SOMETHING WRONG!
[44. the excuse "I can't dance" is unacceptable . . . we'll appreciate the simple fact that you're trying.]
45. just because a girl doesnt pick up on the first ring doesnt mean shes not waiting by the phone.
[46. you dont have to spend a lot, if it means a lot.]
47. dont say you love me if you dont mean it. when we say it we mean it
[48. dont lie to us . . . we will catch you.]
49. just because your tired doesn't mean you can blow us off like we are nothing.
[50. when the girls get together, we talk about EVERYTHING. Meaning my best friends know everything about you.]
[.ღ.].And it's a leap of faith,
when you believe there's someone out there,
it's a leap of faith when you believe that someone cares,
and when I call out to you,
will you be right there,
right there.[.ღ.]
I LOVE COSMO
(Fairly Odd Parents)
x x x
~![10 Ways to a gurls heart]!~
1. Hug her from behind.
2. Grab her hand when you walk next to her.
3. When standing, wrap your arms around her.
4. Cuddle with her.
5. Don't force her to do anything.
6. Write little notes for her.
7. Compliment her.
8. When you hug her, hold her in your arms as long as possible.
9. Say "I love you!" and mean it.
10. Tell all your friends how lucky you are to have her.aahhcckk *hides* my head's gone all funny :'(