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I don't know why I even cared that it was all bullocks
(I won't mention what).
It's not like it means anything to me anymore it's none of my business.
I guess I'd just like to be told the truth >.<
You never told me the truth. Not one thing you said!
My Gawwd. I'm really starting to feel it now.
I thought it was bad at the beginning, but it was nothing.
Not compared to this.
I HATE MYSELF. I try to make myself believe I don't.
I do.
People can tell me all they want. It won't work.
I saw you slipping. But I was too stubborn to pull you back.
Thinking in the end everything would be ok.
That I always get my way.
You proved me wrong.
I thought it was bad at the beginning, but it was nothing.
Not compared to this.
I HATE MYSELF. I try to make myself believe I don't.
I do.
People can tell me all they want. It won't work.
I saw you slipping. But I was too stubborn to pull you back.
Thinking in the end everything would be ok.
That I always get my way.
You proved me wrong.
My whole life is going down hill.
I'm fucking up my school work.
My friends are beginning to see the me.
The me I never wanted them to even suspect was real.
I'm beggining to wonder why I bother?
What's truely keeping me here?
It may sound horrible, but it's not my friends, not my family.
No one understands ME anymore.
They understand who I wanted them to know.
I just want one person. One person to understand me.
One person I can tell everything to.
One person who won't let me fuck up again.
They say don't trust,
You, me, we, us.
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You said i got it all so wrong..
..That i could never be someone..
..You said that I was just a little girl who doesn't know
..buT looK aT mE noW ^ ^
person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down
probably will.[You'll have your heart broken
probably more than once and its harder everytime.]
You'll break hearts too so remember how it felt
when yours was broken.[You'll fight with your
best friend and you might even fall in love with
them.] You'll blame a new love for things an old
one did. You'll cry because time is passing so
fast and you'll eventually lose someone you love.
[So take too many pictures, laugh too hard, and
live like you've never been hurt because every
second you spend mad or upset is a minute of
happiness you'll never get back..]
Yoo called meeh strong; Yoo called me weak. But still yoor secrets; I will keep. Yoo took for granted; All the times I never let yoo down
So is this as fun as Cadbury's World ?
No.
Ohh. What just because you got free chocolate ?
Maybee ! But also because bricks don't interest me in the slightest.
Wanna free brick ?
// i can't believe i let that happen.
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For mine&& [Mikuru Asahina]'s Personal entertainment
..Yooh kno Yooh want it..
[BUT...]
There's so many things I wanna say
I will always love you
I will never leave you alone
Sometimes I just
[forget,]
It breaks my heart to see you crying
I could never make it [x. a l o n e .x]
..&everything's started going wrong, again
A white man yells to a black man. "Hey colored boy! You're blockin my view." The black man turned around and stood up. He then said: "When I was born I was black," "When I grew up I was black," "When I'm sick I'm black," "When I go in the sun I'm black," "When I'm cold I'm black," "When I die I'll be black" "But you sir..." "When you're born you're pink," "When you grow up you're white," "When you're sick, you're green," "When you go in the sun you turn red," "When you're cold you turn blue," "And when you die you turn purple." "And you have the nerve to call me colored?" The black man then sat back down and the white man walked away...