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Member #39471 created: 2006-02-11 07:21:41Simple URL: http://www.elfpack.com/39471   

Name: Tena

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Emo me! <3 and ugly me.....

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My girl kesha on the left and ugly me on the right!

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Crazy kid

Description:
I AM: Tena
I HAVE: a lame life
I WISH: i had my ideal of a perfect man!!!!
I HATE: my mother
I MISS: being optimistic and happy
I FEAR: being rediculed
I HEAR: not sure lol
I SEARCH: for hapiness, though never find it
I WONDER: why people do the things they do
I REGRET: a lot of things
I LOVE: my friends and family...
I ALWAYS: blame myself
I AM NOT: who i wished to me... but i am myself
I CRY: little emo tears
I WRITE: about my life


My name is Tena. I am from a little town in Iowa called Liscomb. I am 17 ans i am a senior in high school. I like to watch movies, listen to music, hang out with friends, party, go to school , work and just have hella fun. My faveorite person in the world is my dad!!! I believe that the most important thing in life is to just be yourself and have fun; never forget who u are!!!!




I hate my life
I want to die
I walk through the rain
So no one knows i cry

Why do you judge me?
Why don't you care?
All I do is cry
You just sit there and stare

I want to do it
So bad you don't know
To end my life
Just let it all go

As you're out with all your friends
I sit here writing this
Razorblade in one hand
Wanting to slit my wrist.

I won't say good-bye
Not to you or anyone
Maybe then you'll realize
What you have done.

ˆˆthat is a poem i wrote a while agoˆˆ
the next 2 were written 12/27/05

'Til The End

I can't stop crying
you hurt me so bad
why did you do this
wish you could take it back

What did i do wrong?
was it something i said?
i need to lie down
lay in my bed

Think about nothing
trying nott o think of it
you put my through this
all of this shit

You told me you loved me
but you didn't want to be friends
I am so hurt now
it will hurt 'til the end


I Was Wrong

I can't believe you
I thought you were my mom
We're supposed to be friends
I guess I was wrong

You told me you loved me
But you wouldn't call me
Not even on Christmas
Never at all

Whenever I see you
You seem like your glad
But then when you never call
It makes me so mad

It seems like you don't even
want to be a part of my life
It hurts me so much
Why did you put me through all this strife?

We've never been the same
Not since you left home
You made me feel so sad
Made me feel all alone

I guess we'll never have
The relationship we once had
I'll stay at home
Stay with Dad


written 1/6/06
The Dream

I see you there
Looking at me
A gun to your head
You're on your knees
You say good-bye
And pull the trigger
Brains splatter
The pool of blood gets bigger
I begin to cry
A devestating scream
Then i wake up
It was all a dream


[New Poems]
(no title yet)

This pain builds up inside of me
I'm ready to let go
I'm lost in my lonliness
so much you'll never know
I write a story
I write it on my wrist
one thats morbid and painful
one with a twist
I'm bleeding my story out
the story of pain inside
but the story just isn't enough
it won't let my feelings subside
I feel empty
I feel lost
in my feelings
in my thoughts
you try to help
you just make it worse
its only happiness that i thurst
all thats left of my heart
is a little speck, like dust
this world is falling apart
loosing all sense of trust
there seems to be little love
left in this evil place
hate taking over
with anger and with haste
Its hard to be patient
will it ever be over?

I Am

I am smart
I am dumb
I am funny
I am dull
I am beautiful
I am ugly
I am normal
I am weird
I am unique
I am creative
I am sweet
I am sensitive
I am tired
I am different
I am bleeding
I am a masachist
I am a bitch
I am nice
I am yearning for affection
I am loving
I am caring
I am sick of caring
I am twisted
I am lonely
I am a person
I am ME




"It's all fun and games until someone looses and eye.... then hey... a FREE EYEBALL!!!!"


[I                 I]
[I l               I l]
[I lo             I lo]
[I lov           I lov]
[I love         I love]
[I love p      I love p]
[I love pi     I love pi]
[I love pin   I love pin]
[I love pink I love pink]
[I love pin   I love pin]
[I love pi     I love pi]
[I love p      I love p]
[I love         I love]
[I lov           I lov]
[I lo             I lo]
[I l               I l]
[I                 I ]

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Girl: Do I ever cross your mind?
Boy: No
Girl: Do you like me?
Boy: Not really
Girl: Do you want me?
Boy: No
Girl: Would you cry if I left?
Boy: No
Girl: Would you live for me?
Boy: No
Girl: Would you do anything for me?
Boy: No way
Girl: What would you choose: your life..or me?
Boy: My life
The girl runs away in shock and pain and the boy runs after her and says...
The reason you never cross my mind is because you're always on my mind. The reason why I don't like you is because I love you. The reason I don't want you is because I need you. The reason I wouldn't cry if you left is because I would die if you left. The reason I wouldn't live for you is because I would die for you. The reason why I'm not willing to do anything for you is because I would do everything for you. The reason I chose my life is because you ARE my life

ˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆthats the sweetest thing everˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆˆ


What would you do if:
[1) I committed suicide:]
[2) I said I liked you:]
[3) I kissed you:]
[4) I lived next door to you:]
[5) I started smoking:]
[6) I stole something:]
[7) I was hospitalized:]
[8) I ran away from home:]
[9) I got into a fight and you weren't there?]
[if u know me tell me, i want to know]

Age: 18Year of birth: 1988Month of birth: 8Day of birth: 22

Gender: female

What do you do?: Being lazy

Place of living: USA-Iowa

Exact place of living: liscomb

Known languages
EnglishSpanish

Elfpack crew wannabe: No

Music
bluesgothgrunge
heavy metalnew ageprogressive metal
punkrock

Other interests
artchasing the preferred sexcooking
dogsdrinksparty
poetryrole playingsmoking
shoppingwhisky

Civil status: single

Sexual preference: both sexes

Body shape: big breasted

Height: 163


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