sooo long weekend..
friday=carshow with jordan, then my housee
saturday=fishing w/kimm&&jordanshouse
sunday=fab4(minus em) to the mall
monday=nadaaa
today=nada

sooo ihave a majorrrr english test tomorrow that I seriously need to pass. like, will DIE if i dont pass it. I'm so sick of that class. Its not even funny. I'm so friggin sick of school. I can't stand it...I can't even describe how much I dread it every day.
And on top of that.. I'm still getting over my grandfather. I'm sick of people telling me it'll get better or "he's in a better place" etc etc. It hasnt gotten better. Its not getting better. I want to know why. I want to know why it still fucking hurts and why I still cry every fucking day about it. I want to know why one of the greatest men I will ever know is gone.
I'm too stressed out to deal with anything anymore. I have chronic bad moods and I just....I want to sleep. for a very long time. I'm too tired.
Now off to study.

sooo this week was vacationnn
friday=hung out with jordan, went to see leatherheads, thenn chili's, then his house. <33
saturday..fab4day,(minus emily) went to unos <33 x2
thennnn went to go plan manhunt&&pick up em, but that didnt end up as planned, so went to coreys instead.
sunday..play practice. 12-330, 5-8
monday..mattshouse! kick the can, backwards hide n seek, etc <33 x3
tuesday...nothing. boringgg
wednesday..out for icecream with em&&miss, then picked up meg <33 x4
thursday..went college visiting, then coreys for manhunt <33 x5
friday..maine with erik, missy, jordan, emily, corey&&meg <33 x6
today...nothing.
tomorrow..play practice

pretty amazing week 

so wednesdayyyy my surprise wasss
they took me to the rainforest cafe!
which was sooo much fun.
annnd we went shopping.
basically, wednesday was amazing.<33
and so was yesterday..
hung out with jordannn <33 x2
and then fire at his house withhh
erik,corey,katelyn,ashleychamplain,em,tracy,catherin&&kevin.
basically amazing 2days.
today=wassss gonna go out to lunch&&a movie with em, ashleychamplain, missy&&meg
buttttt snow came. so it didnt happen =[
ohhh well =]

sooo time for an update!
thursday...jordan came over. Amazing, obv. <33
friday...noschool! drama&&went to matts, ate macncheese, danced around the kitchen, broke stuff, the usual. <33 x2
saturday...huh. i dont think i did anything saturday.
sunday...the usual.&&catherines hockey game cos it was senior night. soooo i had jaiim come with.
today...drama&&mollys w/ em since she had her gallbladder removed.
tomorro? eh. not much, jewelry party.
wednesday..jordan&&catherine are taking me somewhereee.
but wont tell me where cos its a surprise
thats it reallyyyy

mkay soooo
this week has been prettttty good.
friday=emily came overrr and we did our history project.
then saturday went to lunch&&movies with em, meg && missy.
thennnn erik's house for a bit, with the girls&& joey, jordan, and kevin.
oh, and erik of course.
corey was supposed to come...but didnt.
sunday was...nothing.
monday..i dont remember monday.
tuesday i had drama...and was stuck at the school til 450.
today was a snow day! and i feel like shiiiiiiit.
which blows, but whatever.
cleaned my room. whatelseisnew.
annnd tomorrow, jordans coming over <33
and friday=drama and mayyyyybe matts with him ben &&becka.
we'll see.
vacationn next weeeeeek <33 x2
word.

mkay sooo
I'm writing in here juuust to make Joran happy =]
and watch, now he'll never check it.
anyway..
yesterdayy was bundles of fun.
went to megs arounddd sayyy 3:30
then church && out to dinner,
then boys hockey game, which we won 6-3 haaaah <33
thenn went to joeys with meg and emilyy and mgallagher&& jordan were there.
watched the football game....won. <33 x2
annnnd then back to megs, getting ice cream first of courseee =]
it was basically amazing.
but im exhausted.
oh, and i hate doing laundry. =]

k so basically...
today was okay.
well actually, today was amazing, until the end.
went to school, took the PSATs, gag me with a spoon.
boring much?
uhmmmm yaaah.
thennnnn went to pizza hut with jordan <33, mallagher, emily, molly && kerrielle.
basically amazing.
thennnn went to the playground with jordan.
haha no seriously. cause i kinda love swings.
thennnnn walked around the cemetary...
and i swear thats not as creepy as it sounds.
mkay. so then i had my soccer game.
which we lost 5-0 but we played reallllllly well.
what kinda blows is that it wouldve been 3-0 if i wasnt a dipshiiiit.
i played sweeper....cause apparently thats my new position instead of midfield...
they got 2 pk's off of me. cause i shoved a girl and then a handball in the box.
i was pretty ripshit.
but anyway, yeah, thats it really for today. =]
loves <33