Okay... I never do this but I gotta get this off my chest somewhere and my regular writing isn't cutting it right now... Anyways... I was thinking last night and I was trying to figure out what it was about all my ex's that made me hate them so much. And I think I figured something out and I can't believe it's taken me this damn long. I don't hate my ex boyfriends for what they did or who they are, and in fact, I don't hate them at all. I'm mad at myself. I'm mad at myself for being so stupid in the first place. I mean.. You would think after so many years of being screwed up and screwed over that I would learn my lesson... but no. I keep going back for more or dating the same kind of guy. Why is this? Hell I don't know. Why should I expect anybody around here to know. All I know is that now that I've finally learned of this, something has gotta change. Maybe I'll finally listen to the males in my family. Oh well. What's done is done. It's water under the bridge. I just can't help but think how sad it is that when I do find a "nice guy" who's actually interested in me, that I'm too stupid to realize what is standing in front of me. Who knows... Hopefully someday it'll change. Hopefully, someday, I may change.