I got diagnosed with bipolar today... ugggh...

im so confused right now it's not even funny. why do people say that they'll be there and when i really need um their never there????
Maybe that's why i don't trust people.
I donno.
I don't want to live anymore thats all i know.

well, im back. Better than ever. gotta love me. I'm hot.
lol jk

fuck that. let me at the sharp objects! i don't wanna live anymore.

well ppl. i am now utterly and entirely depressed out of my mind. Better keep me away from all sharp objects.

yesterday fucking sucked.
i cried myself to sleep last night knowing that I will never see my cousin again. and that i am not safe at school, or at home. or anywhere for that matter. I got in a fight today with this bitch and broke her nose. Yes i BROKE HER NOSE. not something im proud of. That teaches you fuckers not to judge a book by it's cover. I am feeling very threatened and pissed off at this moment which is not a good combination for me. I have a feeling this is going to be a long weekend. VERY long.
R.I.P
Kathren Fruth
1987-2007
you're always in our hearts
(by the way she died of a drug overdose. Heroin to be exact.)

sometimes i wonder why i try so hard to stay alive when all the other ppl i know are trying to push me down. i'm pathetic.