[Fallen Lil Girl]'s diary

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Written about Sunday 2010-11-28
Written: (4692 days ago)

Soldier,
With wounded thoughts,
In dry snow he lies,
Holding his chest,
And into reason he dives,
His thougts rose,
Like an echo in void of blood,
From his loud cry he couldn't hear,
Every bullet rushing by,
And then every memory,
To his head they come back,
As with every minute,
Little more blood will ground take,

Time pass him by,
While the pain grows,
Watching for the last time,
As it snows,
With restless spasm,
His wishes awaken
But his body,
Already taken,
The horrible and then sad,
The vision,
With soft breath,
He looks for the division,
Killing bullets,
Around him lost,
He rememebered,
When a child he was,
With wooden gun,
Around his neck,
First in fromation,
The toughest to break,
Every hit with speak,
He would tell,
Until every of his friends,
Had fell,

Now he isn't afraid anymore,
With fearsome heart getting up by the shore,
Alone in sea,
Of blood he rushed,
As every bullet,
His body has crushed,

Not a single shot he fired,
To the ground he fell,
Cold and tired ,
With out a muscle left to fight,
He was ready for a dream,
One last night,

Field of blood,
Silence had broke,
Dead body of soldier lost,
In a black cloud of smoke,
From his pocket the wind steals,
A small photo of a kid with a ballon,
On the back of the photo is did say,
"Dad, please come home soon".


I wrote this the other day because my friend had just come back from war and as we was speaking he said he took the same picture as his dad did to war with him but unlike him, his dad didn't come back.

I am sure that his dad is proud of him and is looking over him right now.

128567  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2010-04-08
Written: (4925 days ago)

Today I envey the grey rabbit more then ever, it's life is beinging to appear much more easy compared to mine and I envey it so much, and now I wonder. Did it ever fall in love? Can it fall in love and if so did it ever have it's heart broke? I have only witnessed heart ache once before in my life and I thought I was dieing today I witness it for a second time and I wish it would kill me. I was I was the one with my bones broken and my insides trailing out.

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Written about Thursday 2010-03-25
Written: (4939 days ago)

on my way home today along the country road i saw a dead rabbit. its bones had been broken, and its guts were trailing.

and as i stood there, thinking about where the bones stood out from the skin, i realised something...
i envied it.

the fact that it was dead of course, and the fact that whatever fears it had whilst alive were gone. it had probably fulfilled its purpose in life, and i envied that too (even though that purpose was to reproduce.) at least its purpose was simple.

mine however... couldnt be more complicated.
i help my friends with their issues, whether it involves me or not. in fact most of the time i AM the issue, whther they love me too much or hate me too much...
and it SICKENS me.
im not worth hating, and im not worth loving, i just want a simple, complication free purpose.
just like the little grey rabbit.

127731  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2010-02-02
Written: (4990 days ago)
Next in thread: 127743

I feel really bad today, I miss Mike with all my heart and it sceams like I havn't spoken to him in years and I'm unable to stop thinking about him. I really miss him and I just want to talk to him and make sure he's ok and that we are still talking.

124740  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2009-08-20
Written: (5157 days ago)

There you were with you perfect way,
With that little shine in your eyes,
To hear one word would make my day,
But theres no room for me in you life,
You got me down on my knees,
And in my mind i can see,
How perfect everything could be,
But you wont give us a try,
But if I could change your mind how would you want me,
Would you say you need me,
Cos i need you now,
I try to move on,
But your perfect way has got this little child asking why,
But this world keeps spining,
As my heart stops the beat,
Is there still no room inside,
You got me down on my knees,
And in my mind I can see,
How perfect everything could be,
But you won't give us a try,
But if I could change your mind.
How would you want me,
Would you say you need me,
Cos I need you now,
If I could change your mind,
But if I could change your mind.
How would you want me,
Would you say you need me,
Cos I need you now,
If I could change your mind,
How would you hold me,
Would you say forever,
Or just leave me here to drown,
Onnly if i could change your mind,

124450  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2009-08-09
Written: (5167 days ago)
Next in thread: 124460, 124472

fuck my life i just cant sceem to do anything right no matter how hard i try
im sorry

124418  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2009-08-07
Written: (5169 days ago)

*sighs* i been in spain for almost a week now and i hate it soo much i miss my friends and someone that i wouldnt class to be my friend i hope they know what i mean if they ever read this oh well only 1 more week of total hell im gunna go jump off a tall building now cya

124253  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2009-07-30
Written: (5178 days ago)
Next in thread: 124296, 124349

i have just been told that i have to go to spain for 2 weeks to stay with my grandad :( i really dont want to go cos i already know im gunna miss all my friends and the other misfit *sighs* ahwell maybe i can drown in the sea or maybe the swimming pool

120958  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2009-02-05
Written: (5352 days ago)

to day is a very bad day for me because unfortchunatly my nan has died
may she rest in peace

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