[Fear of the Soul]'s diary

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Written about Sunday 2007-03-04
Written: (6234 days ago)
Next in thread: 95876

The feeling won't go away, I feel so useless,
As if no one wants me, or notices I'm here,
And it seems like people at Berkley High have forgotten about me already.
No one visits anymore, and I just miss everyone so much it hurts.
It feels as if I don't belong anywhere anymore,
No matter how much I'm around people,
No matter how much people tell me that they haven't,
I know,
Deep down,
That they are busy with their own lives,
Have moved on,
And they should be,
The world doesn't revolve around me.

I just wish i could be apart of it...

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Written about Tuesday 2007-02-20
Written: (6246 days ago)

Blood
So much running through my mouth
Cant bare the pain surging through my body
Feeling rage but only a smile showing
Consuming me day by day
Only to be alone in the end
What do they want from me?
I'll never be good enough for them
Why don't they understand how hard this is?
It hurts to be alone, but still I push away
Wanting touch, only to recieve hatred and loathing
Feeling the burn of thier eyes over my shame
Will they ever accept me?
Alone
I guess this lonely path is my only friend
Being cursed for all my life
If only they understood the madness within me
If only I could show them the real me
Another memory, just put to words

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Written about Friday 2007-02-16
Written: (6250 days ago)

You say you love me
I say I love you too
But the two of us isn't new
I get tired of your love
But cant fly away like a dove
So I take a gun
While you have your fun
The next morning you wake
Only to find me in the morgue
You cry and weep but you only act
You never loved me, you never took fact
That I died cause of you and I'll never come back.

94177  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2007-02-09
Written: (6257 days ago)

Feeling alone in this dark room
I cant escape from his eyes
They burn through me; my soul
I feel the need to obey and yet
To turn away; walk away
The need for another's touch; but
To go on alone; without love
I thought to myself; but thinking's
Only a momory; or a nightmare
I knew it would happen, then why does it hurt so?

94164  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2007-02-09
Written: (6257 days ago)

Songs... cant get them out of my head... pulsating through my heart and soul... probably soon to be deleted... who cares anymore...

Sugarcult
Pretty Girl

Pretty girl is suffering,
while he confesses everything
Pretty soon she'll figure out
what his intentions were about

And that's what you get for falling again
you can never get him outta your head
And that's what you get for falling again
you can never get him outta your head

chorus:
Its the way that he makes you feel
its the way that he kisses you
its the way that he makes you fall in love

She's beautiful as usual
with bruises on her ego and
her killer instinct tells her to
be aware of evil men

And that's what you get for falling again
you can never get him outta your head
And that's what you get for falling again
you can never get him outta your head

Chorus

Pretty girl
Pretty girl
Pretty girl is suffering
while he confesses everthing
pretty soon she'll figure out
you can never get him outta your head

its the way that he makes you cry
its the way that he's in your mind
its the way that he makes you fall in love

Its the way that he makes you feel
its the way that he kisses you
its the way that he makes you fall in love, love



LeAnn Rymes
Probably Wouldn't Be This Way

Got a date a week from Friday with the Preacher's son,
Everybody says he's crazy, I'll have to see
I finally moved to Jackson when the summer came,
I won't have to pay that boy to rake my leaves
I'm probably going on and on it seems I'm doing more of that these days

(Chorus:)
I probably wouldn't be this way
I probably wouldn't hurt so bad
I never pictured every minute without you in it,
Oh you left so fast,
Sometimes I see you standing there
Sometimes it's like I'm losing touch
Sometimes I feel I'm so lucky to have had the chance to love this much
God give me moments grace
Cause if I'd nevber seen your face
I probably wouldn't be this way

Momma says that I just shouldn't speak to you,
Susan says that I should just move on,
You oughta see the way these people look at me,
When they see me 'round here talking to this stone,
Everybody thinks I've lost my mind but I just take it day by day

(Chorus)

I probably wouldn't be this way,
I probably wouldn't hurt so bad,
I never pictured every minute without you in it,
Oh you left so fast,
Sometimes I see you standing there,
Sometimes I feel an angels touch
Sometimes I feel that I'm so lucky to have had the chance to love this much
God give me a moments grace
Cause if I'd never see your face
I probably woudln't be this way
I probably wouldn't be this way

Got a date a week from a Friday with the Preacher's son,
Everybody says I'm crazy, guess I'll have to see

68464  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2006-05-19
Written: (6523 days ago)

BHS CHOIR CAR WASH!!!!!!!!!!!!
Saturday, May 27, 2006!!!
1 to 4:15 is when I'll be there with my swim suit

Huntington Woods City Hall
11 Mile and Scotia

And you have to buy a $5 ticket from me, or at the car wash!!!

Please come, if not to wash your car, but to see me in my suit thingy ;D or make a donation

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Written about Tuesday 2006-05-02
Written: (6540 days ago)
Next in thread: 66432

WIZARD OF OZ is showing at berkley high school, in berkley, on thursday, friday, saturday, and sunday. tickets are $10 if you wanna see us make fools of ourselves, AND the musical... and i wont be here this week to update my page cuz its tech week and all that jazz..... so... yeah....

64773  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2006-04-21
Written: (6551 days ago)
Next in thread: 65719

The silence in her room screams of not feelin' wanted
Of not being good enough it almost seems haunted
All her pain soon will be known
When she leaves her mom and dad a message after the tone
And says:
If you don't wanna love me, then I'll find somebody else who will
Find another kinda thrill, find another way to fill this loneliness If you don't wanna love me, then I'll find somebody else who will
Find another kinda thrill, find another way to fill this loneliness.....

lyrics of the heart.


If you really wanna know me
I guess you better show me
Is it real or is it phony
Just love me or leave me alone

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