My American Soldier is coming home!!!!!! I'm sooo excited!!!!!!

This is my first time writing in my diary so...
I feel like shit I want to be there beside my sis to protect her, but I failed! I don't know how to look at her. Everytime I look into her eyes, I see pain, suffering, neglection, rejection, anger, fear, and disbelief. I hate seeing her this way!!! She is scarred for life