I'm begining to think I should give up even trying to find a guy to date. There are none who would be even remotely interested in the type of person I am. It's hard enough to find a gay guy around here who isn't so ashamed of it that he bashes other gays openly to hide it. The ones who are open about it are way to girlish. They all seem so uptight and prissy here. I want someone down to earth and inteligent. Not someone who only wants to gossip about the most lame bull shit. But it looks like descent men only exist in the dreams and worlds I create in my mind. Well i guess I'll get over my own hopeless and helpless non existant love life eventualy but not right now.