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[IF YOU EVER GET CONTACTED BY A MAN NAMED DAVID STANLEY, DO NOT TALK TO HIM. HE IS A LIER AND CHEATER. I SHOULD KNOW BECAUSE HE IS MY FATHER. HE'LL TAKE ALL OF YOUR MONEY AND LEAVE. IF YOU EVER SEE HIM IN THE STREETS, KICK HIS FUCKIN ASS. HES NOT THAT EASY TO MISS. HE LOOKS LIKE A BALD HEADED DRUG ADDICT.]





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[*Constantly Forgiving*]
Time and time again,
you keep lying to me,
I forgive you,
You make it all better,
Soon later,
I'm constantly forgiving.

I just found out,
the summer you lied,
you were talking to her,
this time is different,
you went behind my back,
you didnt tell me a thing,
you lie so much,
This time I'm not going to be,
Constantly forgiving.


Alone in my pain….laying in the dark. My sorrow takes over. No one can hear me. The shadows surround me. I bleed. Waiting for a resolution. I hate this place. This place of Nothingness. Why am I punished so? I bleed….waiting for this life to end. Waiting for a higher place.

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[To Jay]
I looked up at you. I told you I didnt know if I could do this. Almost drowning in my own blood. You kissed my lips. My heart stopped bleeding. For once In my life, I felt like I meant something to another person. You make me happy. I look into your eyes, and my soul returns to my body. A little scarred, but none the less, my heart beats along with yours.

[To The One Who Doesnt See Me]
I look at you. I dont know if you see me or not. I see someone who needs help only I dont know if I am the right one to give it to you. I see someone who wants to cry but holds it in. I would lend you my shoulder but I dont know if you want it. Sometimes I have the biggest hate for you. I dont know what to do about it. I cant tell you about it because it would only hurt you more than you hurt now. When I look at you, I can read your face. Deep inside you're longing for completion. Waiting for someone to save you. I was here the whole time. You just dont see me.


[To you...Fucker]
You thought it was fun, but you didnt know. You didnt know that I was suffering through your satisfaction. Not that you cared anyways. I was just a toy that you could play with and discard. I was too fragile to be your anything. My revenge will be sweet, and it will be served cold like it should be. This time you will suffer and I can discard you. Killing you would be benefitial to you, and I dont want to let you off that easy. I will show up one day, and you will be sorry.

would/will you?
(_) give me your number? (_ _ _) _ _ _- _ _ _ _
(_) kiss me?
(_) let me kiss you?
(_) watch a porn movie with me?
(_) take me out to dinner?
(_) let me drive you somewhere?
(_) take a shower with me?
(_) buy me a drink?
(_) take me home for the night?
(_) let me sleep in your bed?
(_) Sing car karaoke w/ me?
(_) re-post this for me to answer your questions?
(_) Come pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere?
(_) Lock me in your room and take advantage of me?
(_) let me make you breakfast?
(_) help me with homework?
(_) tickle me?
(_) let me tickle you?
(_) stick up for me if i was being put down?
(_) get wasted with me?
(_) instant message me?
(_) greet me in public?
(_) hang out with me?
(_) bring me around your friends?
(_) make out with me?
(_) in public?









D0 Y0U...
(_) think im cute?
(_) think im hott?
(_) want to kiss me?
(_) want to cuddle with me?
(_) want to hook up with me?
(_) want to live happily ever after with me?









AM i...
(_) smart?
(_) cute?
(_) funny?
(_) cool?
(_) loveable?
(_) adorable?
(_) compassionate?
(_) great to be with?
(_) attractive?
(_) mean?









HAVE Y0U EVER...
(_) thought about hooking up with me?
(_) found yourself wanting a kiss from me?
(_) wished I were there?
(_) had a crush on me?
(_) wanted my number?
(_) had a dream about me?
(_) been distracted by me?
(_) had a dirty fantasy about me?









ARE Y0U...
(_) happy you know me?
(_) mad at me?
(_) thinking about me?


I am: an honest person
I hurt: when people lie
I want: to be happy forever
I hate: LIARS!
I cry: For him
I fear: My past
I hope: for what cant be fixed
I feel alone: when he is gone
I waste: My tears
I talk: to whoever will listen
I break: my own heart
I watch: people being dumb
I remember: What you do
I sleep with: the other empty side of my bed
I hide: From myself
I drive: into your heart
I burn: to make you happy
I breathe: the truth
I miss: Jay
I feel: Jay
I know: Jay
I dream: About us
I await: For Jay
I live: To see him Smile
I die: with you in my memories

[Lying In Your Shadows]

No one sees me,
It's because the cant,
There's always someone in front of me,
I'm in your shadow,
Begging, screaming for the light to shine on me,
It can't because you take up to much of the light's time.
I don't mind that they see you,
But I want them to see me,
What I say is true,
I shake my head positively.
Crouched in a corner,
I look up at you,
I look at everyone watch you,
They watch your every move.
They can't see me,
I'm in your shadow.


Amanda Kaye Stanley

Copyright ©2005 Amanda Kaye Stanley

I wrote that poem and its seriously copywrited so no one can take it! you got that?

[untitled]
You know who you are

It's not a big deal
at least its not to you
when you tell me how you feel
I wonder if it's true

"I have to"
Is what you said to me
And i guess i have to let you
so we can soon be free

when that time comes
Will you still feel the same
My heart busts like a drum
but with love, not shame

So this I say to you
And hope you'll grow to see
everything you say and do
effects you and me


Amanda Kaye Stanley

Copyright ©2006 Amanda Kaye Stanley