ok... i have had a really bad experience with love.. back in september... 3 days before our 1year and 4 month anneversary my girlfriend decides that she want's to be with her gay boyfriend more than she want's to be with me. he has a boyfriend as well as her... and he is living in montana while she and i live in washington.i only live half a flippin' hour's drive away from her now. the sad thing is that she still loves me.

my sister was dating one of my friends over the summer... but around the first of august she calls me and tells me that he's mine.. to soften the blow for him that she has just gotten married and is "with child". so now i have a boyfriend. his name is matt. and he's one of the funniest best guys i know... i just don't want him in bed with me. i don't know what to do with him. i don't want to break his heart but i can't really stay with him just to make him happy when i'm not. i'm not really looking for a new person in my life right now... and i'm just not comfortable taking back an older relationship i had.

i just need my friends for morral support... (or something like that)... i'm kinda down right now. friends make the difference.

i'm gonna change my name... jennifer lee kelly. all i have to do is do the paper work pay the fee and wait for my court hearing.

AAaaaugh..... the asshole is getting drunk! he's getting pissy and he's bein philosophical. i just hope he doesn't drink more tonight. i don't want to stay awake all night to just stay safe.

MY SISTER HAS CANCER.

is it too stupid to say i want to go "home" when its what i need to get away from? if you have an answer tell me.

i have had a hectic couple weeks.  my uncle passed on and his funeral was on my birthday. i'm the legion's bugler so i had to play taps for him. i could barely finish it for the crying that was happening around me. i wish... i just wish i could have done more for my auntie.

cold. bored. have had no school for a week. sleepy.

i am in big trouble. my mom's boyfriend is drunk off his ass! i don't want to be hurt what do i do?

god this is so crazy. nick knows i like him and he's still with stephanie! she is not right for him. i'm just the shrink he goes to for a hug.

theres a guy. i like him but he likes someone else and is with a diff. person. augh! i wish i weren't his shrink/hug buddy. T_T

Aaugh! i'm the shrink in my group of friends and it sucks! why you ask? well my ex can't let go of her ex's. one is with my cousin and my ex hate's my cousin for dating him. everyone is getting hurt including me! im being torn! what do i do?