[fu**(fuse)]'s diary
Was alright. :/ The only good thing is that I found my very own really cute freshie XD ..too bad he's 14. :/
The hallways we're so humid, I swear I could of died right then and there >< It sucked so bad.
But everything else was OK.
Well not really, It turnes out 2nd period, (sewing class) I'm stuck with my sister and her freshie. :P And 1st is civics and Economics. (I hate history)
And third is Alegbra, (math hates me) XD And 4th is spanish, (It's not so bad but I have no friends in there to talk to :/)
Soooo I'll talk about how I met my freshie, since thats was one of my wishes for this year, to get a freshie. Well in lunch, I was like in line, well first I cutted my freshie in line (I didnt know him then :P) But he seemed cool about it. So I made my friends cut infront of him, to see what he would do. (Yeah i'm mean like that, it's a test to see if they can handle my jerkeyness.) And he didn't mind, but when I looked UP at him, (Yes he's taller..ima sucker for height) he smiled at me, in which he has a Great smile ^^ (I notice things like this) AND so I was like, "are you a freshman?
and he was like, "Yeah. *smile*" and i was like, "Yeeeaahh, I could tell." At that my friends laughed and he grinned, (At this point, I realized he was totally rad, even though he was wearing preppy Ambercrombie clothes) so i was like, "whats your name?" he answered, "Caleb" Soo I started talking to him, along with Evey, and we chatted until it was time for me to order, so I ordered and asked Caleb if he had anywhere to sit, and he was like, "Umm well I'm gonna see if this other girl I met is here.." So i was like, "Ah yeah, well if she's not, just look for the red flaming hair" and he laughed. As I sat, he looked around and spotted me (which isnt hard to so XD) And I gave him my Peace sign, (My new way of saying hello) Along with a smile and he came and sat with me and we ate and chatted and now he's my freshie! YAY!!! ^^
The rest of the day was fail. XD <3
I was just looking back into my online diary, and I realized that it cuts off and now I cant look back on what I was thinking from years ago.. :( I think that super sucks, but I guess it makes sence... *sigh* :P At least my at home diarys cant be deleted.
Who knew, from an innocent friendship, to best friends, to lovers, to heartbreak, to one of us in the hospital because of attempt of suicide.
I should have seen this coming. I wish I never would have been so attached.
Damn my good looks, and "pure heart".
Pffft pure heart my ass! >,<
It wasn't supost to turn out this way.
But really? What goes right now-a-days?
<3
Written about Tuesday 2009-08-18
Written: (5574 days ago)
-[Neurotic Obsession]-This Is Raphie. I love him.
He's mine, so back off. ^^
He's so pretty,
he always seems to dazzle me with his words,
leaving me blushing, or grinning from ear to ear.
And He's the one to inspire me
to write poetry again. He is the only one I can
Spend forever talking to on Stickam.com
He is my Sunny Day,
and he has a special place in my heart, kidney, and spleen.
Raphie always puts me first, and I love him for that.
I dunno what I'll do if I lost hims. <333333
*nods*
Today. We Broke up. Yep. The engaged are now no more, and i dont know how to feel about that. :/ I Still love him.. but..I think I'm going into shock. Is it truely over? What now? whats next?...I think I'm gonna faint. I shall never watch another disney movie or talk in german or french, or go on stickam without thinking of him.. And It doesnt help that I have his necklace. I guess it goes into my treasure box. *sigh* What was I thinking? How could anyone like that ever last with me? I dont deserve his love and now i need to lose weight cause he likes curvey girls. I'm done for. This chapter ended for me. I need to shed my old skin and start a new.
I Hope This Makes, You smile.
And you might stay this way for a while.
Cause You deserve, every grin, that you get.
And you'll get them a lot from me, oh I hope! ^^ <3
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Just incase their wondering.
They've got us pinned seperatly.
They,
Dont believe our love is real.
Cause they,
dont know,
how real love is.
You should know,
It's true.
Just Now.
The part about my love,
For you.
And Now.
My hearts about to burst,
Into a thousand peices so it must be true.
And They'll believe us too soon.
Baby it's fact,
our love is true.
Where black is black,
And blue is blue.
Our love is true,
it's a matter of fact.
Oh and you love me too,
it's as simple as that.
Baby our love,
Is True.
They insist on aweful things.
But theres no point in listening.
Your words and the only words,
That I believe in afterwards.
You should know,
It's true.
Just Now.
The part about my love,
For you.
And Now.
My hearts about to burst,
Into a thousand peices so it must be true.
And They'll believe us too soon.
Baby it's fact,
our love is true.
Where black is black,
And blue is blue.
Our love is true,
it's a matter of fact.
Oh and you love me too,
it's as simple as that.
Baby our love,
Is True.
Is true. Oh oh oh!
Is true. Yeah yeah yeah!
Is true. Oh oh oh!
Baby it's fact,
our love is true.
Where black is black,
And blue is blue.
Our love is true,
it's a matter of fact.
Oh and you love me too,
it's as simple as that.
Baby our love,
Is True.
Oh.
It is love,
from the first time I set my eyes upon yours.
Thinking,
Oh, Is it love.
Oh dear,
It's been hardly a moment and you are already missed.
There is still a bit of your skin that I yet to of kissed.
Oh say 'please do not go',
But you know, oh, you know that I must.
Oh say 'I love you so',
but you know oh, you know you can trust.
We'll be,
holding hands in the end.
All our,
broken plans I will mend.
I'll hold you close so you'll know.
It is love,
from the first time I press my hand into yours.
Thinking oh, is it love.
Oh dear, it's been hardly three days yet gone,
and I miss your embrace.
There are several more days until I get to see your sweet face.
Oh say, 'wouldn't you like to be older and living with me?'
Oh say, "wouldn't it be nice to know I'd know that we'll be,
Someday.
Holding hands in the end.
All our broken plans would have been.
I'll kiss you soft so you know.
It is love,
from the first time I pressed my lips against yours.
Thinking oh, It is Love.
Written about Friday 2009-08-07
Written: (5586 days ago)
You have stolen my heart,
with one glace of your eyes.
All beautiful They are.
My love, you are radiant, and ruddy.
Outstanding among ten thousand.
**Take note this isn't my song, and It's not the whole song, just the part I like XD
If It Kills Me (The Casa Nova Sessions) Jason Mraz
And all I really want from you is to feel me,
as the feeling inside keeps building.
And I'll find a way to you if it kills me,
If it kills me,
If it kills me.
I think it might kill me..
You know I'll find my way to you if it kills me,
if it kills me,
If it kills me...
It might kill me.