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beautifulscars 0801 (never say forever if you know its not!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

Member #13648 created: 2005-03-31 23:00:36Simple URL:   

Name: call me kitty


me i know im scary [hotcf2000]says: HELL NO YOUR NOT !!! YOUR SEXY!!! lol
look its me vvvvvvvvvvdown there mememememe hahahahaha ME..... CRAIG!!!!!


MY SEXY ASS BEST FRIEND I LOVE HIM WITH ALL OF MY HEART...<img:> him again!!! [hotcf2000]

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Crazy kid


i belive we have nothing to fear but fear its self and the man behind the curtin


"vegetables... a waste of good plate space."
-Marc Hoppus (blink 182)


(Image deleted by the guards)

i'll draw u a picture
i'll draw it with a twist
i'll draw it with a razorblade
i'll draw it on my wrist
and if u draw it correctly
a fountain will appear
to wash away my sorrows
to chase away my fears


causing pain...
just to have it retrun the same...
carring all the blame for everthing,
suffring in silence,
as i sit in the dark,
fighting with my self,
two different people in one mind.
being pulled aprat from the inside out.
watching as the blood poors down...
feeling the cold metal pressing in to my skin.
deeper and deeper...
feelings go numb....
as i lay here in silence.......
tears no long fall..... words no longer spoken

(i wrote this)


lets see there is nothing that great about me....i got long brown hair.. green/gray eyes i where glasses...well lets just say im differnt for anybody you will ever meet.I AM GOTH GET OVER IT!! im a lot differnt when you talk to me in person just because i have everything to talk about when im on the phone but on the computer i dont talk that much...i have a comptly differnt personality then any body i know (yeah i cant spell) but anyways yeah no one really cares... but yeah i like a lot of diffrent music if u look at the list below u will know
my chemical romance
yellow card
marilyn manson
3doors down
three days grace
linkin park
the used
breaking benjermin
puddle of mudd
story of the year
red hot chili peppers
sum 41
smile empty soul
taking back sunday
guns n'Roses

ok well that is all i can think of for now so i will update more later... ok lets see more about me uhh..i cant spell.... [hotcf2000] is my best friends i love him to death u mess w/ himm and ur messing w/ me too... i have 3 brothers (all yonger) 5 sisters and i am dislexic... so that is one reason i cant spell yeah i dont belive there is a "god" and i havent for about 2 or 3 years just cuz i dont believe there is a god that dose not mean i worship the devil.... and i do believe there r demons...i love vampiers,shape shifers, anthing along that lines... I HATE RACIEST PEOPLE!!!!! now if u have a problem w/ any thing i just said i dont care ok well there really isnt any thang else to say DONT FUCKIN ASK TO CYBER !!! TO ALL THE PERVERTS!!

its easy to know u love some one possibly difficult to explan why some times the right words wont come out no matter how hard u try some people say actons speak best and possible this could be ture but i think u will do better by often telling her i love u

[hotcf2000] [^wrote this for me when we were going out]

every time im around u i always want to kiss u but most of the time im nervous and then i always miss u and when we're togther i just feel good but anybody who comes nere u naturally would you funny hott and if some people think your strange dont worrey about them cuz i dont ever want u to change i never loved anyone this much i never loved anyone this long but i want you to know my love for u is very strong i never would have been happy with out u probaly would have killed myself maybe but emy always know i love you more than anything baby
[^and he wrote this one]

here is my fav. song i just like it cuz its a lot like the way i feel most of the time

    Better Version
Excuse the mess, I didn't see you from behind
I caught a glimpse, but the reflection's only mine
It's almost like I'm paralyzed and locked outside myself
What I don't need is to concede because I won't be someone else
I am not perfect and I don't claim to be
And if that's what you wanted
Well then I'm so sorry

How about a better version of, the way that I am
How about a better version that, makes me understand
How about a better version of, the way that I am
The way I look, The way I speak,
How about a better version of me

Excuse the wall, I put it up from time to time
A silver shade, and the design is all mine
It's just a maze that everyday I seem to be stuck in
It never seems to fade away but I pray for the day it ends

I am not perfect and I don't claim to be
And if that's what you wanted
Well then I'm so sorry


Show me my vital signs until I'm realigned



February 20, 1967-April 5, 1994

Kurt was only 27 years old when he committed suicide on April 5,1994

To Boddah
Speaking from the tongue of an experienced simpleton who obviously would rather be an emasculated, infantile complain-ee. This note should be pretty easy to understand.

All the warnings from the punk rock 101 courses over the years, since my first introduction to the, shall we say, ethics involved with independence and the embracement of your community has proven to be very true. I haven't felt the excitement of listening to as well as creating music along with reading and writing for too many years now. I feel guity beyond words about these things.

For example when we're back stage and the lights go out and the manic roar of the crowds begins., it doesn't affect me the way in which it did for Freddie Mercury, who seemed to love, relish in the the love and adoration from the crowd which is something I totally admire and envy. The fact is, I can't fool you, any one of you. It simply isn't fair to you or me. The worst crime I can think of would be to rip people off by faking it and pretending as if I'm having 100% fun. Sometimes I feel as if I should have a punch-in time clock before I walk out on stage. I've tried everything within my power to appreciate it (and I do,God, believe me I do, but it's not enough). I appreciate the fact that I and we have affected and entertained a lot of people. It must be one of those narcissists who only appreciate things when they're gone. I'm too sensitive. I need to be slightly numb in order to regain the enthusiasms I once had as a child.

On our last 3 tours, I've had a much better appreciation for all the people I've known personally, and as fans of our music, but I still can't get over the frustration, the guilt and empathy I have for everyone. There's good in all of us and I think I simply love people too much, so much that it makes me feel too fucking sad. The sad little, sensitive, unappreciative, Pisces, Jesus man. Why don't you just enjoy it? I don't know!

I have a goddess of a wife who sweats ambition and empathy and a daughter who reminds me too much of what i used to be, full of love and joy, kissing every person she meets because everyone is good and will do her no harm. And that terrifies me to the point to where I can barely function. I can't stand the thought of Frances becoming the miserable, self-destructive, death rocker that I've become.

I have it good, very good, and I'm grateful, but since the age of seven, I've become hateful towards all humans in general. Only because it seems so easy for people to get along that have empathy. Only because I love and feel sorry for people too much I guess.

Thank you all from the pit of my burning, nauseous stomach for your letters and concern during the past years. I'm too much of an erratic, moody baby! I don't have the passion anymore, and so remember, it's better to burn out than to fade away.

Peace, love, empathy.
Kurt Cobain

Frances and Courtney, I'll be at your alter.
Please keep going Courtney, for Frances.
For her life, which will be so much happier without me.

(dont message me with hey sexy or do you want to cyber cuz i wont answer ill just block ur bitch ass!!!!!!!)


Missing: </b>

Age: 16Year of birth: 1990Month of birth: 8Day of birth: 1

Gender: female

What do you do?: Being lazy

Place of living: USA-Texas

Exact place of living: baytown

Known languages

Home-page URL: i luv mathew

Weblog URL: i luv shadow

Favorite URL: i luv them both

ICQ number: 53191

Elfpack crew wannabe: No

alternativegrungeheavy metal
hip hoppunkrock

Other interests
bookscatscrime stories

Civil status: involved

Sexual preference: both sexes

Body shape: normal

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