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Waiting in Vain (Hunny get the honey)

Member #1553 created: 2004-10-26 01:06:30Simple URL:   

Name: [ Xx ].Ardis.[ xX ]




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Crazy kid


♥[ Back.s.e.a.t ]{Deb-u-taunt}♥




My,my,my....What a mess we've made of our little selfs these days

[Who i am]


     I really don't know.   I'm a little bit of [everthing] mixed up into one glass. Shaken...not stired. I've been hurt and loved all at once and i don't know what to think of it all. I want to be myself, but in order to do that i need to know what being myself means. People know me as a diffrent Girl, One thats just for show... not to be touched, just looked at and [veiwed] by the spectators and judged. But i hate putting on this "show"...I don't know who i am. I don't have a label...I have thousands, and i would kill to have one.   [Just one.]  To know who i am.
Thats all i've wanted, to be safe within my own skin and not feel so un-welcome by
who i am.



like you did,


[ x.♥.x ]

I am: alive
I hurt: My self

I want: Perfection

I hate: hostility

I cry: for everyone

I fear: hate

I hope: for a home

I feel alone: and despise it

I waste: Time

I talk: loud

I break: the rules

I watch: Society

I remember: Warmth

I sleep with: Regret

I hide: my pain

I burn: memories

I Miss: innocents

I feel: Betrayed

I dream: of serenity

I await: peace

I live: to give.

I die: inside

I have no desire to see threw my own eyes anymore


Loving someone requires a leap of faith and a soft landing is never gauranteed.

~[*]~[*]~If you want to view paradise, simply look around and view it. anything you want to, [do it]. Want to change the world? There's nothing to it.


Just this once, I need a miracle to happen…I’ve gotten myself way to wound-up to be disappointed to this extent; it would literally kill me…


♥Gabriel May♥ 
[1987 - 2004]
I didn't really know you.
But emilia did and so did alary.
When i saw how they reacted to your death,i cried too.

People still love you here,and we'll never forget you.

Christina M. Wise 
[1988 - 2005]
I love you and everyone misses you.♥

If it stayed i'd never leave it 
If that turned around 
I'd grieve the special dirty things that we used to talk about 
I mean that loving you is strange 
And adored by me throughout oh no it's you again 
Someday soon you'll find that someone 
Waiting for the chance to beat you 
Drooling on the set to feel you 
Blessing you with every ♥kiss♥

Tying yourself to me 
Stitch up my emptiness cause your the death of me 
So precious loving the thrill 
Tying yourself to me 
Stitch up my emptiness cause your the death of me 
So precious loving the thrill 


[Dream painter]

Images flash to mind,

memories that don't belong to

your smiling face from an angel never vewied

frozen in someone else's picture


My heart longs to take its own photographs of you

it captures fleeting images of your face in a crowd

or your form walking down the path

but theses are to stolen


not received

I am a maker of collages

taking bits of others' lives

and pasting them onto my own

a circunstance like hers

a smiling face his

a place like there

and a time like then

they paint a beautiful picture

of a non-existent world

where i find happiness by closing my eyes

Poor dream painter

you-starving artist-

trying to feed yourself on art alone

trying to feed your hunger for love

yes, a still life bowl of fruit

cannot fill an empty stomach

nor can an image of dreams

fill my lonely heart

but it brings bittersweet joy

to my still life.








[ Kiss::Kiss ]

Age: 17Year of birth: 1990Month of birth: 6Day of birth: 13

Gender: female

What do you do?: Something in between

Place of living: USA-Michigan

Exact place of living: Gobles

Known languages
Sign LanguageEnglishSpanish

Elfpack crew wannabe: No

folk musicgrungepop

Other interests
bookscatschasing the preferred sex
cookingcrime storiesdisco
role playingsingingsewing

Civil status: involved

Sexual preference: both sexes

Body shape: normal

Height: 183

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