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Fading Away (XD :D <3 INLOVE <3 :D XD)

Member #51731 created: 2008-04-24 13:09:26Simple URL:   

Name: Carla Elizabeth Neve


Great Night Out :)


:D XD 8> 0.0

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Behind The Smile

Behind my smile
There is a cloud
Behind my eyes
Are tears of pain
In my heart
I'll always know
Who I long to be with
Is you

I see in your eyes
There's pain
I see in your eyes
Theirs Sorrow
You beg
and cry
To be with me

There are reasons
My reasons
Why I can't
and wont
Be with you
I love you
And you love me



I smile to hide the pain
To look like i am fine
To be strong for you

I cry when I am alone
When noone can see me
When I am in darkness

I harm myself to avoid all hurt
To get rid of this mental pain
To avoid the tears from falling

I drink to avoid the truth
To feel numb
To forget myself

I didn't say
I was scared
I was hurt

I am scared of darkness
Feeling as if I am not safe
Dreaming of my past

I am scared of life
Feeling suicidal, depressed and hate
Not showing the pain I feel

Hurting myself to feel better
Not sleeping on a night
Hating myself

I am scared of you
Your in my nightmares
My flashbacks and my memories

You haunt me in my mind
You scarred me mentally
You made me hate you

My abuser
MY GORGEOUS BOYFRIEND :D <3!/photo.php?fbid=10150191367288699&amp;set=a.437426888698.203851.514508698&;type=1&theater

Did u know? B4 u go to sleep at night there is 1 person of the opposite sex thinking of u. They want you they want to kiss u, They want to be with u they are always thinking about u b4 they go to sleep at night they are longing to be with u. This is all true not a fake if u repost this to in 5 mins the person that is longing to be with you will approach you in a month and ask u out or grab u and snog the face off u.!/photo.php?fbid=10150211938990844&amp;set=a.483027690843.278195.647415843&;type=1&theater

Age: 20Year of birth: 1991Month of birth: 11Day of birth: 15

Gender: female

What do you do?: Studying

Place of living: United Kingdom-England

Exact place of living: Stanley. County Durham.

Known languages

adult popalternativeeurodisco
gothheavy metalhip hop
new agepopprogressive metal

Other interests
card gamescatschasing the preferred sex
poetryrole playingsinging

Civil status: involved

Sexual preference: opposite sex

Body shape: thin

Height: 160

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