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xXmerkabaXx

Member #52246 created: 2008-06-28 06:06:06Simple URL: http://www.elfpack.com/xxmerkabaxx   
Email: xavierphate@hotmail.com

Name: Xavier Killian

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Description:
I am the hunter. You are my prey. I will feed off of your desires. And you will beg me for more. I will bleed you of your compassion. Leave you with only your lust. You will never forget the day when you lose your humanity. Because it will be washed away in an orgasmic tidalwave. So smile now my oblique friend. For I will soon guide you on this path of retrogression and degeneracy.


CONFUCTION

Not knowing, I feel
Disreguarded and tossed aside.
Pushed away, I watch
Observing from the outside.
Unwilling, I kneel
Tearing at my tear soaked eyes.
While I pray, I fought
The loss from this compromize.

Lack of lacrimal production
The gaiety of distruction
Firebrand for dececption
Placed me, in a, state of confuction

Catabolism occurs then dissimilated and metabolized
Began tearing up the very architecture that I called my life
Desperate victim to the environment that changed the integrity
Concede to the atmosphere of subjugation and captivity
Design to the freshet of a catastrophic memento mori
Conscionable and centripal a non-transitoriness story

Lack of lacrimal production
The gaiety of distruction
Firebrand for dececption
Here I am broke by this rejection
Lost again in a state of confuction

BAD PRESCRIPTION

Everybodies aching for me.
Im like a drug you can not get enough of.
I flow through your viens I distroy all your pain.
I build you up just to tear you down.
You want my love just to fuck around.
And you always come back for more.
And you always drop to the floor.
Your begging on you knees.
"Take me, cum in me please."
Everybody, everybody, everybody is aching for love.
Everybody, everybody, everybody is craving this drug.
You cant have me! You cant have me! You cant have me, anymore!!
Go find a new addiction.
Im not your prescription!
Go find a new addiction,
Im not your prescription!
Im not your pleasure toy or your whore!
All you fucked me, so I'll fuck you all!
Im all used up, now I have nothing left.
Im all fucked up, and its all in my head.
Im no longer your fucking pleasure toy!
Im no longer your fucking whore!
Im gonna, Im gonna, Im gonna,
FUCK YOU ALL!!!!

DIRTY SEX (BROKEN SKIN & ROPE BURNS)

Up and Down, In and Out
I try hard to get away from
Left and Right, Front and Back
It follows me everywhere now
Oh these thoughts
These dirty,dirty,dirty,dirty thoughts
If you knew what I harbor
You would want to run away
Or would you?
Are you as sick as me?
Do you supress the need?
Do you like to bleed?
I think your as sick as me!
So will you?
Up and Down, In and Out
As we fuck the scars rip open
Left and Right, Front and Back
Sadistic love and masochism
Oh these thoughs
These dirty, dirty, dirty, dirty thoughts
Bruises, welts, a little rope burn
Makes our sex so much better
Oh these dirty thoughts!

SADISM

I..... want to taste...... you.......
I..... want to feel your...... body pulse.....
With ecstasy......
Make you squirm!
Make you bleed!
Make you hurt!
Make you scream....
DONT STOP, DONT STOP, TAKE ME THERE!
FUCK ME, FUCK ME, I AM ALMOST THERE!
OH GOD, OH GOD, I AM THERE!
I AM FEELING, FEELING, I FEEL SO SCARED!

My life..... flashed before..... my eyes.....
This pain..... hurts so good.... that I.....
Might be in love.....
Make me squirm!
Make me bleed!
Make me hurt!
Make me scream.....
DONT STOP, DONT STOP, TAKE ME THERE!
FUCK ME, FUCK ME, I AM ALMOST THERE!
OH GOD, OH GOD, I AM THERE!
I AM FEELING, FEELING, I FEEL SO SCARED!

Until now,I didnt know
And
Smoehow, Its starting to show
As we lay here
Blood staining the sheets
With fading fear
And loving release
I know now
What I wanted to be
This sadistic fucker
With no love in me

DONT STOP, DONT STOP, TAKE ME THERE!
FUCK ME, FUCK ME, I AM ALMOST THERE!
OH GOD, OH GOD, I AM THERE!
I AM FEELING, FEELING, I FEEL SO SCARED!

(DONT) STOP

This is my love, This is my dream
Where nothing is really just as it seems
Everything is so blurry its so obscene
The bodies are curtains so I can not be seen
Their rything and grinding wanting to scream
They never once thought just what they could be
As the blood flows, Drugs start to go
Race through your viens, Kills all the pain
The demons you lust, The demons you fuck
The urges set in, The fucking begins
Slap them around, Tie them all down
I know what they want, So I will never stop....
Stop..... Stop..... Stop.....
This is my gun, This is my hate
Where all I dont want, Is just what I make
Create the deposits, That create the days
Bones in the closet, Thats where they will stay
I wear these masks, I wear all this fake
You dont understand, Just what it will take
As the blood flows, Drugs start to go
Race through your viens, Kills all the pain
The demons you lust, The demons you fuck
The urges set in, The fucking begins
Slap them around, Tie them all down
I know what they want, So I will never stop....
Stop..... Stop..... Stop....

WARM PROTEIN SHOTS

Do you want it?.... Yeah!
I can give it!.... Now!
Can you take it?.... Down!
A one ounce shot
Of warm protein.
Just put it in your mouth
And swallow.
You are all my whores.
Begging me for more.
Cuts bleed,
From your knees.
Looking up at me.
Dont know what you see.
Or what you need.
So you want it?
I might give it.
You will take it.
Down, Down, Down
And when you need it.
I will give it.
So you can have it.
Now, Now, Now

STRIP FOR ME

Let me see you strip, for me
Peal off all your skin, for me
Show me your organs, for me
Bleed, for me
Your need, for me
Dont deny me your needs
And I wont neglect to please
I want to feel your insides
I want to hurt you, dont hide
Dig through tissue
Have my way with you
Dont hide
Let me inside
I will only find
All that you hide
Dont be afraid, dont be scared
Its a small price to be paid
To face what you feared
You want it
I need it
So dont try to fight it

GODLIKE

When we fuck I feel like a god
When I cum I am one
Swallow my saviors And you will be forgiven
Revel in this sin for your only human
Take all I am willing to give
Believe in me im your deliverence
Heaven is found in this orgasm
Pain is just an illusion
You are my invision
For acceptence to my heaven
Do you feel it desolution
Do you need it confirmation
Bleeding out your needs
Your bleeding for me
Begging
Praying
Wanting
Seething
Needing for me
To make you see
To make you feel
Something so real

CHEW

God is coming and so am I
You dont want to live this lie
Take it for what it is
And I dont care if you dont want it
Im giving this to you to feed on
Chew it nice and slow
No choking
Swallow your mouthful
Before you
Bite off more to chew
God is leaving and so am I
I am done with your fragile life
I leave you wanting more today
I dont hear your begging, praying for me to stay
Just fucking deal with it
Your thumbs give you confidence
Your minds make up all of this
To die and have eternal bliss
That is how you deal with it
Fuck this!

adDICKtion (LIL'WHORE)

Cut you open
So disgusting
All your insides rotten like an apple core
You gave away your innocence
When you said "lets fuck"
Now you feel your in a trance
Like your stuck in a rut
Now your nothing more
Than my, my little whore
Your so adDICKted
To this adDICKtion
To put it plainly
Im what your craving
Call me daddy cuz your my little girl
So lovey dovey im gonna ruin your world
Pom-poms and puppies arent yours anymore
Im all your needing cuz your my little whore

OMG!

God has left me alone in my bed
She doesnt want to get into my head
So I let her leave walk out the door
And leave me this way the same as before

What do I have to do to see her again
Lie or steal or cheat or kill or
Should i just drop and pray within
Pray she will reture for more

Close my eyes to this
The smoke fades thin
A scene of atrocious bliss
Reveals itself then

What do I do now
Do I know who I am
She smiles looking down
She knows what I am

God knows me more than I
She abuses me from time to time
Knowing that I will cry
But I will scream for her to be mine

Foot on my back
Be mine
Smite me and laugh
Be mine
To me dont bereave
Be mine
She fucks me and leaves
Be mine

God leaves me alone once again
Shes had her fill and goes
And I wait for her to come again
This is just how it goes

NOT SO FOREIGN MATERIAL

This sequestered path I now traverse
Not alone but unaccomponied
Its conductive to my use of this unused connotation
Recognize Eros still resides in me

So long departed from this emotion im lost and garbled
Seeking desperately for an unanimous sentiment
I uncover the verity with just a look inward
Recognize Eros still smiles on me

Thus I compose silver speech and undefended heart
Spilling forth aspirations, dreams and desires
Praying for my remission of sin and redemption
By recognizing Eros hasnt repudiated me

EMPTY

Its 9 o'clock on Friday
Nothings alright but im ok
My bottle of scotch is empty

So I grap a pen and some paper
To write down what im feeling
But tonight I am no creator
It seems so unappealing

So this appears so empty
Much like my bottle
More so like my soul

Rummaging through memories
Seeking out something to makes things fine
Ransacking cluttered stories
Reaching for anything to claim as mine
But im so damn empty
Nothing is left in me

Oh wait
Theirs scotch




ALL THESE WERE WRITEN BY ME

Age: 29Year of birth: 1981Month of birth: 2Day of birth: 3

Gender: male

What do you do?: Something in between

Place of living: Travelling around

Exact place of living: Your nightmares.

Known languages
English

Elfpack crew wannabe: No

Music
classicalgothopera

Other interests
animalsartbooks
catschasing the preferred sexcooking
dancingfantasyfashion
filmhistoryparty
poetrysmokingtheatre
winewriting

Civil status: single

Sexual preference: both sexes

Body shape: thin

Height: 185


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