Yea i'm pretty much done with my "friend" (check last entry) he has fucked me over and i'm not the kind of person who likes being used soooo i am no longer talking to him...and trust me that was the hardest decision to make, i was bawling...but w/e the world will keep turning...this is one of my favorite lines (from juggalo family) "I hate everyone and i hate everything except for all the juggalos and all the love that they bring" and that is pretty much how i feel anymore...i just want to be happy again, it feels like its never gonna happen...

I have been very very depressed lately!!! (I know i sound like an emo but w/e) My best friend and i haven't talked in almost a week which is the longest we haven't communicated. I have been acting weird lately and no one knows why...well its because of him...i miss him soooo much and i keep telling myself that we're drifting apart and just to let him go but i can't, and then to make things worse i read something that said: "He isn't my boyfriend, but i love his smile,his hugs,his advice, his kindness, and the times when we laugh together, I guess i fell in love with our friendship"

This thing almost made me cry, i love him to death