E-mail ME!!!!!theunforgiven937@netscape.net


 I'm just a really messed up 13 year old kid .I want to start a band with some of my friends.I used to express my emotions of sorrow and depressionwith a pocket knife and safety pins, but my best friends helped me get over self infliction. My only weapon tha acts as a gateway to get my powerful emotions out is a pencil and i use that to write down problems that i have or to just vent how i'm feeling.I also use a phone to call my friends and i use elf town.Thank you to all of the people out there that helped me with my problem before it was too late (especially [manic depressive], [BLOODY_ARMS],[Aguywithchopstix],[painless],[metaldrummer638],[Your Bloody Romance],[female_lover],and a bunch of other people.All of you saved my life.Thank you.

If yOu WaNt To KnOw AnYtHiNg AbOuT mE, tHeN sEnD mE a mEsSaGe BeCaUsE i LoVe GeTtInG mEsSaGeS fRoM rAnDoM pEoPlE!!!!

[Here is some info about me]
Name:Crystal L** B***
Age: 13
Height: 5'4"
Hair Colour:Black
Eye Colour:Brownish/Greenish
Gender:GIRL/FEMALE/CHICK
State:Minnesota
City:East Bethel
Favorite Color:Black
Favorite Band:Slipknot
Favorite Hobby:Playing my guitar


[This is is a description of what i look like:
*Shoulder length black hair
*Brownish/greenish eyes
*5'4" tall
*Long legs
*Straight teeth]

I am:[*SeXy PsYcHo*], [Crystal,Beans,Bean,Beaner,Squirt,Bruise,Bruiser,Spazzy McGee,and a lot more.]
I have:[a pulse(unfortunately)]
I wish:[to be beautiful and to have an unlimited amount of wishes]
I hate:[me and life]
I miss:[a lot of stuff]
I fear:[dying alone]
I hear:[death, music, fear, emotions]
I search:[for a boyfriend that is like me. and death]
I wonder:[wwwwaaaaayyyyy too much]
I regret:[a LOT of things]
I love:[pain,death,darkness,silence]
I always:[hate myself]
I am NOT:[very pretty]
I cry:[way to often]
I write:[thoughts and feelings]
I hurt:[myself and others]
I want:[to be with someone that understands me and loves me]
I hope:[that my wishes come true]
I feel alone:[all the time.24/7]
I waste:[my life and every breath i take]
I talk:[to my friends and to myself]
I break:[my pale skin with a sharp object]
I watch:[life fly by so fast and i'm stuck at a slow pace]
I remember:[the bad times]
I forget:[the good times i used to have]
I sleep with:[a razorblade under my pillow]
I hide:[my scars,wounds, and i hide from the past, the present, and the future]
I drive:
I burn:[my skin]
I breathe:[hopefully my last breath]
I feel:[pretty much nothing]
I know:[life sucks and death is probably better]
I dream:[I just have nightmares now]
I await:[the world to come to an end]
I live:[waiting to die]
I die:[when the shitty things in life become too shitty]


[Bands]:
SLIPKNOT!!!!
Korn
Linkin Park
Ozzy
Deftones
Motley Crue
Limp Bizkit
Good Charlotte
Atreyu
Godsmack
American Head Charge
Bush
Staind
Chevelle
Incubis
Papa Roach
Marylin Manson
Offspring
Metallica
My Chemical Romance
And many more bands!

[Things I like to do]:
Play my 3 guitars
Talk on the phone
Go camping
Go hunting
Go fishing
Be hiper
Go mudding(ride through HUGE mud puddles with trucks and 4-wheelers)
[I also LOVE to fight with people.I don't think that my friends like to fight,there have been so many times where i just want to get into a really bad physical fight with my friends for no apparent reason.lol.At my birthday in February, my friend and i got into a really bad fight.i could have fought forever, but she fell and hit her arm on something and started crying and didn't want to fight anymore.so i went and got one of those really hard ice packs, and chucked it at her.lol.it was so funny.I love fighting.]
And a lot more!

[favorite movies]
The Nightmare Before Christmas
The Crow
Fight Club
Hangman's Curse
Girl, Interrupted
Edward Scissorhands
Underworld
Bettlejuice
The Queen Of The Damned
Forsaken




[Here is a nice story]:


A girl asked a boy if he thought she was pretty, he said...no
She asked him if he would want to be with her forever, and he said...no
She then asked him that if she were to walk away, would he cry, once again he replied with a...no
She had enough.As she walked away, tears streamed down her face.
The boy grabbed her arm and said,
You're not pretty, you're BEAUTIFUL,
I don't want to be with you forever, I NEED to,
And I wouldn't cry if you walked away, I would DIE!


[Here is another story]


One night a guy & a girl were driving home from the movies. The boy sensed there was something wrong because of the painful silence they shared between them that night. The girl then asked the boy to pull over because she wanted to talk. She told him that her feelings had changed & that it was time to move on. A silent tear slid down his cheek as he slowly reached into his pocket & passed her a folded note. At that moment, a drunk driver was speeding down that very same street. He swerved right into the drivers seat, killing the boy. Miraculously, the girl survived. Remembering the note, she pulled it out & read it. "Without your love, I would die."


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Disorder | Rating
Paranoid: Very High
Schizoid: Moderate
Schizotypal: Very High
Antisocial: High
Borderline: Very High
Histrionic: Moderate
Narcissistic: Very High
Avoidant: Very High
Dependent: Very High
Obsessive-Compulsive: High


URL of the test: http://www.4degreez.com/misc/personality_disorder_test.mv



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HERE COMES THE FUN ... ... ...





1. Are we friends?





2. Would you kiss me?





3. ...with tongue?





4. Would you enjoy it?





5. Would you ever ask me out?





6. Would you make a move on me in a movie theater?





7. Would you hold me if I was crying?





8. Would you take care of me when I'm sick?





9. Do you want to tell me something that you couldn't before?





10. If I gave you my phone number, would you call me?





11. If you heard a rumor about me, would you defend me?





12. Do you think I'm a good person?





13. Would you let me sleep with you (in a friendly way)?





14. Would you take me to a romantic walk on the beach and let me lay with you?





15.Do you think I'm hot?





16. If you could change anything about me -would you?





17. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?





18. Do you have a crush on me?





19. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.





20. Describe me in one word.





21. What was your first impression?





22. Do you still think that way about me now?





23. What reminds you of me?





24. If you could give me anything what would it be?





^^answer that and send it to me






ANSWER THIS PLEASE!!!!!!!!

what would you do if:
[1) I committed suicide:
2) I said I liked you:
3) I kissed you:
4) I lived next door to you:
5) I started smoking:
6) I stole something:
7) I was hospitalized:
8) I ran away from home:
9) I got into a fight and you weren't there:]
what do you think of my:
[1) Personality:
2) Eyes:
3) Face:
4) Hair:
5) Clothes:
6) Mannerisms:]
general stuff:
[1) Who are you?
2) Are we friends?
3) When and how did we meet?
4) How have I affected you?
5) What do you think of me?
6) What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7) How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
8) Do you love me?
9) Have I ever hurt you?
10) Would you hug me?
11) Would you kiss me?
12) Would you make love to me?
13) Would you marry me?
14) Emotionally, what stands out?
15) Do you wish I was cooler?
16) On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
17) Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
18) Am I loveable?
19) How long have you known me?
20) Describe me in one word.
21) What was your first impression? 
22) Do you still think that way about me now?
23) What do you think my weakness is?
24) Do you think I'll get married?
25) What about me makes you happy?
26) What about me makes you sad?
27) What reminds you of me?
28) What's something you would change about me?
29) How well do you know me?
30) Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
31) Do you think I would kill someone?
32) Are we close?
33) Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?]

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