Todays not the best of days. i don't know why but i feel bad.

Love can be a real bitch, but once you get it you don't want to let go.

"I never look towards the future...It comes soon enough"
"Remember the past, Live in the present, And ignore the future for it does not exist...There is only now."
"The future cannot be seen for it does not exist, It does not exist for anything that changes so many time by our choices would totally be destroyed."

...My heart...is being ripped out again...she loves me...but I am not good enough for her. I got into another fight today...foolishly trying to prove to myself...I can't stop...fighting is the only thing i can to...I love her...I broke my leg...i have a long slash across my chest..these are the prices I must pay for my stpidity..but I cannot stop...I will not stop untill I find true happiness...will I ever?

i hate meyself. i am not as i should be. jess wants to break up untill i bring my grades up so that i can talk with her everyday. why am i so stupid? why cant i bring my grades up? i have to. i will.

I have NEVER felt so sad....so ANGRY....I'm so angry I could just....I want to do something, I HAVE...to do something...I can't let this go on. I won't let it...I will do something even if it kills me...

i love you jess with all my heart and being, i will never betray you never lie to you never make you feel bad. i will forever be there to help you or hold you when ever you need me. just please dont leave me. i love you and i forever will

me:im sad
friends:why?
me:cause the girl i love lives away from me
friends:so
me:so what?
friend:love know no distance
me:thanks
friend:anytime

I am one and the other is me,
I am forever twice in the same place



If what we can't see doesn't exist,
what if somethign can't see us? do we still exist?

this is a journal NOT a diary. just makeing sure you know that

i'm such a dork. i have to know everything. it pisses me off sometimes, but i guess thats the way i am. mister "i have to know McDumbass" *sigh*


P.S.(this is not a diary)

by the way this is a journal...not a diary

i like her but does she like me? does she hate me? could she care less? i have to know. i already asked but...i dont know...*sigh* im hopeless

ok also i want to establish the fact that this is a journal and not a diary. good glad to get that cleared up

kool. im going to start a diary now. but since im a guy i am going to be very pissy if you call it a diary...its a JOURNAL. J-O-U-R-N-A-L JOURNAL not a diary