I am the god Inspiration, ask me for inspiration and I will give it, my favorite offerings include:[Words of love
            Words of deep emotion
            Words of guidance]




  Such unoworthy deaths are played and erased and stayed, and decay. I thought I told you not to run not to stay, not to cry. I tried so hard to do everything right and in my own way, and your way was just so damn difficult. I lost my reasons lost my logic about the fifth step of this process this cost us, so much, and now touch...the window pane. The light outside burns so bright and the dust shades it from my eyes as I sleep eternal inside this tomb inside this place that I am buried and I burn inside for more. I burn inside for this to be more than what i used to have, I used to think that you were awake in me and now I see it was just the heavy dust settling from above. I stand corrected and erected for a totem to be a symbol of love, and trust, and so much...more. I thought you saw that deep set in my eyes of deep set heavy unsettled loss and sorrow. It wasnt like this before it was so eays just to see, so easy just to feel, and now my head says no while my love says yes, and I find it hard to believe both when thye both disagree, disagree. I know maybe its right, but maybe its worng, and maybe its wrong and right but feels so good. I never thought Id be found here never thought Id be discovered huddled in this corner, huddled because Im alone. The light breaks through the window and the shattered glass prickles my face and the light stings my eyes, and...and....and I cry inside myself as I lie there helpless and cold.


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   [If I die I guess it would be alright. I thought that I would cry, but it'd be a waste of a night. I wasnt really in love with her anyway, it was a lie I lived with everyday.
      =But why do I feel so lost when shes not here to lead me? Why do I feel so dumb when shes not here to teach me? I feel so helpless, so careless, so me.=
      I want to wake up somewhere that feels like home, somewhere that looks like it has a chance. I want to see the end of this road, and I want to get away from all these hand me downs. Im done with the pain done with the hurt, Im getting over her so i dont go insane, I hate when she makes me feel like dirt.
      =But why do I feel so lost when shes not here to lead me? Why do I feel so dumb when shes not here to teach me? I feel so helpless, so careless, so me.=
       Never again will I find reasons to fall in love, and no longer will I give it up. Im tired of trying so hard for soemthing Ill never have, cuz its all a load of crap. damn this world and its fakes, damn this world and what it takes. Im tired so tired of the gurl who hurt me, and Im so tired of flirting.
     =But why do I feel so lost when shes not here to lead me? Why do I feel so dumb when shes not here to teach me? I feel so helpless, so careless, so me.= ]
(short song I wrote)

Anti-flag, Now thats what 'I' call music, heh...
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   I saw you outside waiting for me to scream and runfrom the truth. You laffed with glee, laffed utterly pleased. I couldnt stand being physcially, invisibly beaten and struck down. As I take this knife and nail your hands to the wall I contemplate all the pain you put me through, the hell I endured for you, all the pain, you'll get it soon. Those blue eyes look so calm but I know inside you wish I were dead, thats what you said. Now with the situation reversed you still cant give up the hate, still wont let it fade, not until it's too late. I cant stand to watch you suffer and you could spend hours watching me bleed.
**{My wiki ~Inspired~}**