Give me the ..bottle.. of ..cyanide.. so I can ..drink.. away this ..pain..
The ..hangover.. cant be this ..bad..
I'll ..sleep.. it away in my ..box shaped bed..

..[Things I like]..

Love
[..even when it hurts..]

Sad songs
[..though they make me cry..]

Food
[..especially Italian..]

Writting
[..but sometimes I don't like to..]

Pain
[..only a little to know I'm alive..]

Girls
[..beautiful in my eyes..]

Showers
[..sometimes I sing..]

Singing
[..even if I don't sound good..]

Holding Hands
[..but I can't twine my fingers with yours..]

Rain
[..I shall cry beneath the stormy sky in memories..]

My Gf
[..She's all I want, all I need..]




..[Things I dislike]..

Break-ups
[..hearts breaking is the worst sound..]

Gay bashers
[..the ones who think only their opinions matter..]

Pain
[..I'm a wimp, she bites..]

Lack of creativity
[..when I can no longer turn words into beauty..]

My laziness
[..but I'm too lazy to change it..]

Boys
[..except the gay ones..]

Crying in public
[..noone needs to see my tears..]

People who are ALWAYS depressed
[..get help if you need it..]

My body
[..though it's only me to blame..]




..[What I am]..

Screw-up
[..but who doesn't sometimes..]

Girl
[..not to be mistaken for girly(even if I scream and run from bugs)..]

Lesbian
[..take it or leave it..]

Writter
[..when inspiration strikes..]

Romantic
[..I can't help but want to believe..]

17
[..I wish time would stop..]

Emotional
[..I can cry for days with the right reason..]

Confused
[..I lose myself..]

Hers
[..and I'm loving it..]





I've decided to take a chance here.
Ask me 4 questions.
Any 4, no matter how personal, private or random.
I have to answer them honestly.
I have to answer them all.
In turn, you post this message in your own profile.
You have to answer the questions that are asked of you.


THE SPILL CANVAS

"The Tide"

And there's three, count 'em three
Children playing on the beach
They were eager to learn,
To be taught and to teach

There's Veronica
She's [..biting..] her lip
As she watches the waves turn white at the tip
And there's Vada
Radiating with joy
And luckily she still [..can't stand..] the sight of a boy
And lastly there's Dave
His hair dances in the wind
And he's wondering what love is
And [..why..] it has to end

And he can't understand
How everyone goes on [..breathing..] when true love [..ends..]
His mother [..whispers quietly..]
Heaven's not a place that you go when you [..die..]
It's that [..moment..] in life when you [..actually..] feel [..alive..]
So live for the [..moment..]
And take this advice, live by [..every..] word
Love is just a [..hoax..] so [..forget..] anything that you have heard
And [..live..] for the moment now

And there's three, count 'em three
Children growing on the beach
They were eager to learn,
To be taught and to teach

There's Veronica
She's licking her lips
As she [..waits..] for her real, first [..passionate..] kiss
And there's Vada
Can't admit her [..jealousy..]
Of her sister Veronica, and how she's so [..pretty..] (and how she's so [..pretty..])
Lastly there's Dave
Still sitting on the dock
Ponders his [..life..], and he skips his rocks
And he wonders [..when..] his father will return
But he's [..not..] coming back

And he can't understand
How everyone goes on [..breathing..] when true love [..ends..]
His mother [..whispers quietly...]
Heaven's not a place that you go when you [..die..]
It's that [..moment..] in life when you [..actually..] feel [..alive..]
So live for the [..moment..]
And take this advice, live by [..every..] word
Love is just a [..hoax..] so [..forget..] anything that you have heard ([..forget..] everything)

And there's three, count 'em three
Children missing from the beach
They were eager to learn,
To be taught and to teach

But the [..sad..] thing
Is that they [..never..] lived passed the age of fifteen
Due to [..neglect..] from their mother
Who was bed ridden by her ex-lover, their [..father..]
She didn't even [..notice..], or pay much attention
As the tide came in and [..swept..] her three into the ocean
Now all her advice, it seems [..useless..]

No, [..heaven's..] not a place that you go when you [..die..]
It's that moment in [..life..] when you touch her and you feel [..alive..]
So live for the [..moment..]
And take this advice, live by [..every..] word
Love's [..completely..] real, so forget anything that you've [..heard..]
And live for the moment [..now..]


..promises.. aren't ..forever.. because we're still ..alive..
no matter how
..dead.. I ..wish.. I ..were..