[~Cry_Baby~]'s diary
I feel like screaming at the top of my lungs but no one would ever hear me
I feel like jumping off the side of a cliff just to feel scared and pressure
I feel like pulling my hair out in a syc-wored and just going crazy
I feel like just telling everyone fuck you and beating the hell out of them
But the most thing I am feeling is pain and disappointment from eveyone who judges me and makes me feel like I cant do anything!
Thats what I feel what are you going to do now?
"I'm sorry"
The following is so sad and unfortunately it's true. To any girls reading this, let it be an eye opener or a reminder, LOOK AT WHAT'S RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU! YOU COULD FIND WHAT YOU'VE BEEN LOOKING FOR ALL ALONG. And to any guys reading this, I speak for the girls who don't take nice guys for granted, and if we have ever made any of you feel like this we're so sorry!!!
I'm sorry
that I bought you roses
to tell you that i like you
I'm sorry
That I was raised with respect
not to sleep with you when you were drunk
I'm sorry
That my body's not ripped enough
to "satisfy" your wants
I'm sorry
that I open your car door,
and pull out your chair like I was raised
I'm sorry
That I'm not cute enough
to be "your guy"
I'm sorry
That I am actually nice;
not a jerk
I'm sorry
I don't have a huge bank account
to buy you expensive things
I'm sorry
I like to spend quality nights at home
cuddling with you, instead of at a club
I'm sorry
I would rather make love to you then just screw you
like some random guy.
I'm sorry
That I am always the one you need to talk to,
but never good enough to date
I'm sorry
That I always held your hair back when you threw up,and didn't get mad at you for puking in my car,
but when we went out you went home with another guy
I'm sorry
That I am there to pick you up at 4am when your new man hit you and dropped you off in the middle of nowhere,
but not good enough to listen to me when I need a friend
I'm sorry
If I start not being there because it hurts being used as a door mat, only to be thrown to the side when the new jerk comes around
I'm sorry
If I don't answer my phone anymore when you call, to listen to you cry for hours, instead of getting a couple hours of sleep before work
I'm sorry
that you can't realize.. I've been the one all along.
I'm sorry
If you read this and know somebody like this
but don't care
But most of all
I'm sorry
For not being sorry anymore
I'm sorry
That you can't accept me for who I am
I'm sorry
I can never do anything right, and nothing that I do is good
enough to make it in your world.
I'm sorry
I caught your boyfriend with another girl and told you about it, I thought that was what friends were for...
I'm sorry
That I told you I loved you and actually meant it.
I'm sorry
That I talked to you for nine hours on Thanksgiving when your boyfriend was threatening you instead of spending time with my family.
I'm Sorry
That I cared
I'm sorry
that I listen to you at night talking about how you wish you could have done something different.
Ladies always complain and gripe to their friends that there is never any good guys out there, and they always end up with assholes who mistreat them. Well ladies next time you're complaining, maybe look up to see who you're complaining to, maybe that special someone is right there hanging on your every word as usual, screaming in his head "Why won't you give me a chance?"
Because the person you are usually searching for is right by you.
If you're a guy and you agree with this letter, repost as "I'm sorry "
If You're one of the FEW girls with enough BALLS to repost, and you would never make your guy feel this way, repost as Subject "Girls dont realize these things
"Nice guys finish last."
To every guy that regrets hurting or losing her.
To every guy who knows which girl he wants.
To every guy that's said, "Sex can wait."
To every guy that's said, "You're beautiful." (instead of Damn ur hot!)
To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town (or across the state) to see her.
To every guy that gives flowers and a card when she is sick.
To every guy who has given her flowers just because.
To every guy that said he would die for her.
To every guy that really would.
To every guy that did what she wanted to do.
To every guy that cried in front of her.
To every guy that she cried in front of.
To every guy that holds hands with her.
To every guy that kisses her with meaning.
To every guy that hugs her when she's sad.
To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all.
To every guy who would give their jacket up for her.
To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe.
To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to see her for ten minutes.
To every guy that would give his seat up.
To every guy that just wants to cuddle.
To every guy that reassured her that she was beautiful no matter what.
To every guy who told his secrets to her.
To every guy that tried to show how much he cared through every word and every breath.
To every guy that thought maybe this could be the one.
To every guy that believed in her dreams.
To every guy that would have done anything so she could achieve them.
To every guy that never laughed at her when she told him her dreams.
To every guy that walked her to her car.
To every guy that wasn't just trying to get laid.
To every guy that gave his heart.
To every guy who prays that she is happy even if you are not with her.
Not many girls appreciate nice guys anymore... And because of this, there are not many left out there...
If you are a nice guy repost this with "Nice guys finish last."
If you are a girl that thinks every guy should try to acomplish even a few of these repost this with: "To the nice guys left
THEY SAY IT TAKES A MINUTE......
.......TO FIND A SPECIAL PERSON, .......
.....AN HOUR TO APPRECIATE THEM, ......
.........A DAY TO LOVE THEM, ........
..........AN ENTIRE LIFE TIME.........
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.......SEND THIS TO THE PEOPLE......
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.........ITS A SHORT COMMENT.......
...........TO LET THEM KNOW..........
......THAT U'LL NEVER 4GET THEM......
...IF U DON'T SEND THIS TO ANYONE...
.......IT MEANS UR'RE IN A HURRY.......
..........AND THAT U 4GOTTEN.......
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"QUOTES"
"LIFE IS A BALANCE OF HOLDING ON AND LETTING GO"-KEITH URBAN
"I BELIEVE IN INDIVIDUALITY, BEING YOURSELF, AND TO HELL WITH WHAT ANYBODY ELSE THINKS ABOUT YOU."-
BILLIE JOE ARMSTRONG
"WHEN IT COMES TO LUCK, YOU MAKE YOUR OWN"-BRUCE SPRINGSTEEN
"I THINK LIFE GOES THROUGH A CYCLE OF LOSING AND REFINDING YOURSELF ALL THE TIME. EVERYONE HAS DISAPPOINTMENT
"I'M A ROMANTIC. TO ME, THE IDEA OF A ROMANTIC IS SOMEONE WHO SEES THE REALITY, LIVES THE REALITY EVERY DAY, BUT KNOWS ABOUT THE POSSIBILITIES TOO. YOU CAN'T LOSE SIGHT OF DREAMS"-BRUCE SPRINGSTEEN
"PEOPLE AREN'T ALWAYS THEMSELVES. THEY'RE ALWAYS HOLDING BACK SOMETHING"-GAR
A Girl Who Thought Love Was There!
A girl who had everything in order, thought she was on the
right track, with the boyfriend and school in order along
with her social life! This boy who she thought she loved
very much, also knowing him for 2-3 years, started to show
what he was and it wasnt what she wanted, but she knew that
there was no way for her to get out of it cause she loved
him so much she would die for him! Until he met her sisters
and he fell in love with one of them and tried to hide it
for the girl who loved him, but it was as easy to see as
seeing a deer in the road! She kept her mouth shut and
didnt say anything, so she started to get depressed and cry
alot. Until one night she got so wasted she told him
everything that was on her mind and her sisters tried to
stop her but she kept on and told him the worst things one
could ever say. he had pushed her that far, but when it
back fired he tried to kill himself and not talk to anyone
for 2 weeks, she tried to make everything better and show
him that she was sorry but he pushed and didnt hear her!
She wrote him letters saying she was sorry and apologize
but nothing! He finally started to talk to the sisters and
the girls friends! It was like she was never there when
everyone else was but in her mind she was screaming but
knew it was the right thing so when the boy was getting
ready to go to California she expressed how she felt and he
left still hating her, not one word to her, so she was left
with all the pain he had caused her and so she was hurting,
with out care, she killed herself. He never knew what
happend to the girl!
You diss
I slit my wrist
When you cause me pain
I slit the left vain
You break my heart
That’s where it starts
When you pretend
To care
Well how do you dare
It’s just not fair
So I remain
So damn silent
See my stain
It was very violent
I’m just a shadow
A part of the past
A part that could never last
My trickling blood
Is dripping fast
I hear a thud
I just lie and stare
I cry
And wonder why
Why do I even try?
It all only ends up being a lie?
But I have my reasons.
Just depending on the seasons
I get depressed
moody
and screaming out in horror
at reality;
the facts of life
as I take the knife
that is what I think
blood dripping into the sink
as I drop the knife
My head pounding
heart thundering
with my music up so high
no one hears me crying
I try to stand
but only feeling dizzy
and falling once again
with needle pin in hand
I stab
making marks all up my arm
and with alarm
the phone rings
1,2,3,
I scream
cuz he’s now gone
I cry out in horror
screaming why
I wait for the tone
then hang up the phone
while thinking
why do I try
it all ends up only being a lie....
Mah Famileh!
Mommeh:
Daddeh:
Big Sistah:
Little Sistah:
Little Sistah:
Big Bruzzah:
Little Bruzzah:
Aunt:
Uncle:
Granny:
Grandpa:
Boyfriend:
Puppy:
Kitty:
My Sister Tina [* Nena *]
My favorite Bitch Heaven [I Dream of Love]
My favorite gangsta Jeremy (Aka) Jay [that boy jay]
My favorite west coast buddy Bryan [Death Stalker]
My favorite Killer Joe [BLOOD THIRSTY PSYCHO]
My favorite Joker Blake [B-Raz]
My Favorite Romancer Ron [Heart of a Lover]
My favorite Adviser Jonathan [Elfpack sucks]
My Oklahoma Buddy Jeremy [jj040190]
My kinky Kenton [K-money]
My wigga Matt [pricey1]
My Bubble Joey [psychotic orange]
My Best friend Symon [making love to a corpse.]
My Other part of my personality Kevin [The Centaur]
My brother Kevindu [XXStrangerXX]
My AWESOME buddy chris [TEDYBER]
My Home Gurl Kim [Baby_Girl07]
My fighting buddy Justn [ULTRAnumb]
My Other adviser Kyle [Nobodies Hero]
My Best friend Marcus [the mood guy]
My home gurl Rikki [MadHatress]
My older friend Jay [jayjay1]
My horny toad Steve [Dragunity]
Really good friends=
My Number 1 =
My Mummy =
My Daddy =
My Sister =
My Bruva =
My Safe Bruva =
My Son =
My Daughter =
My girlfriend =
My Whore =
My Idol =
My Stalker =
My Bitch =
My Star =
My Angel =
My Devil =
My Hottie =
My Partner In Crime =
My Guardian Angel =
My Babe =
My Sexy girl =
My Secret Admirer =
My Dirty Dancer =
My Body guard =
My Soulmate =
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.C(")(") who really gives a shit?!
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( . .)
C(")(") Bunny
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($.$)
C(")(")<<<<Bling-Bling Bunny
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.( v.v ).
..c(")(")..<<<sad bunny
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.(O.O).
.C(")(")Bunny on Crack
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.(>.<).
.C(")(")SHIT!
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.(<.<).
.c(")(").<<<bunny who saw u naked
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.( 'o' ).
.C(")(").<<<bunny who says "I'm Telling Mom!"
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.(*.*).
C(")(")<<<DEAD BUNNY
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.( -.- ).
C(")(")<<annoyed bunny
../) /)..
.(^.^).
.C(")(") Lets all just be happy and get naked!!!
../) /)..
.( . .).
.C(")(") no...i don't want the cookie....i want ur mom lol.
../) /)..
.(O.O).
.C(")(") Whats going on! It wasn't me!
../) /)..
.(*!*).
.c(")(") WEED??? WHAT WEED,huh?
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OK YOU SO NEED TO ANSWER THIS!!!]
[GIVE ME A NUMBER!!
You can pick more than one..
1= I like you
2= I love you
3= You're funny
4= You're cool
5= I don't really care for your personality
6= I wanna be on you!
7= You're sexy
8= You have a nice body
9= I hate you
10= You're boring
11= your gay and your just a waist of air
12= You have an awesome personality
13= I want to kiss every part of your body
14= I wanna do you 'til you scream my name
15= I want to go out with you
16= I'm looking for a relationship with you
17= be wit me
18= you're cute
19= i dont know you?
20= i want you in my life
Afterwards, repost it and see what number people will give you]
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*Hugs.......Hu
*Hugs.......Hu